Hi all
Gosh, what a lucky escape I had! I had the nausea and other stuff but it was overwhelmed by the brain zaps :roll: These took me to my bed for a few days and reduced me to tears.
I used Nightnurse to help me overcome the withdrawal symptoms because at the time I was seeing a doctor I had no trust in and wanted to be completely off them before going back.
I then went back but saw a different GP who totally sympathised with my side effects of citalopram, especially the strong desire to kill myself and even planned it out in every detail on the Sunday before I stopped taking them - I had weighed up the top of my stairs and the distance I would need to fix a rope to hang successfully.
Yes. I did need to get off citalopram and quick!
I have the same symptoms when trying to reduce my paroxetine (seroxat) I will deal with that when the time comes - as when I last tried to reduce my dose I could feel myself slipping back into that dark tunnel where the evil demon lurks.
My GP says at least 6 months of the same drug before even thinking about coming off them - that will have to be extended for me as I do not intend to have more time off work while I deal with the withdrawal symptoms so I am willing to stay on them now until next July.
Good news is - I can now sleep without the use of sleeping pills - HURRAH! I'm not going to tell my GP that of course lol - just in case I need the zopiclone again. I will re order them every few weeks just to keep them on repeat :shock:
More good news :D :D :D
I have finally put the paintbrushes away and paste board ----------
Yeah! :D I have finished decorating :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
This weekend I have invited my mum to stay so she can help me polish, clean and get everything in order before my return to work on Friday for diary dates - then it's back to work on 1st Sept for proper - full time and fingers crossed everyone back to normal and not fussing me and telling me to rest up or go home early :shock: :shock: :shock: :roll: :roll: :roll:
Without trying to bore anyone with a very lengthy post and without me starting a new thread I just want to say to you all...
An extremely large amount of people each year suffer depression, anxiety or panic attacks or many other mental ILLNESSES. If you have posted here or read here, you are the lucky ones because you have admitted and realised you have an illness that needs treating. You will recover with time and drugs and help - IF you are prepared to put in the effort yourselves.
I am not saying or suggesting that anyone should pull themselves together but if your GP refers you to another service then use it to your benefit - make it work for YOU! If he or she gives you medication then take it and remember all drugs take time to work but at the same time not all people will react the saem to the same drug - if one doesn't work for you say so - tell your GP and ask to try something different. Be completely honest with your GP, CPN, CBT, psychiatrists because if you aren't completely honest with them they cannot help you - end of!
The drugs will help ease the symptoms but it's the therapies and your own will power that will cure you.
Go for it...............
Go forward and shine.
God bless you all and may you find the same strength as I did to get through this and fight off that eveil demon.
Melbi xxx