For the past year and a half I have been suffering from what doctors and therapists are saying is anxiety and panic attacks with OCD. January of 2017 I woke up in the middle of the night one night and had a panic attack and since then I have not been the same. I went through a spell where I was very paranoid. I have only had one panic attack in my life before this and it was when I smoked weed. When I woke up in the middle of the night having a panic attack I automatically assumed somebody had given me weed when I did not know. I knew deep down nobody would do that but the thought was still in my head. I would not drink a drink or eat food that was left out of my sight because I thought there would be weed in it and make me feel bad. I would know deep down it was not and eat it or drink it anyway and then would have a panic attack thinking about it. I have had my good days don't get me wrong, but over time it is wearing me down. I have noticed over the past year and some months that about every 2-3 months I get very irritable usually right around "that time" of the month and then when I start within a day or 2 it goes away. However, this time a week later I am still a little irritable and have angry spells. I know there is probably good reason, like I found out 2 weeks ago my husband was keeping a secret from me....a stupid one, but a secret none the less, and his Mom has been in our business a lot lately and my husbands best friend died last week, and I started a new job about a month ago. So I have had a lot going on and my therapist and Dr. tell me its "just anxiety"
To the point Every so often I keep fearing that I am bipolar. I had one therapist ASK me if I was one time or if I thought I was and I told her no. and she said she thought it was OCD and Anxiety and that I was having some panic attacks.
Today I feel really awake and jittery and my vision seems off, like everything is brighter looking, The trees are greener, the sun is brighter, and I feel really awake and not tired. Which I did sleep almost 9 hours Saturday night and 6 1/2 hours last night so today I feel really awake yet tired at the same time.
Does this sound like anxiety and OCD and panic or does it sound more like the bipolar spectrum? I fear bipolar and I don't know why even though my doctors tell me I am not.
I am not here for a diagnosis. But I know everybody here has been through some sort of something and it is easier to get advice and opinions from people who have actually lived through these things.
You can have some kind of PTSD from that time that happened...its hard to not think about the things that have made us the way we are...try to remember that you are ok now and that time is gone
Definitely sounds like Anxiety.
Crazy how powerful it is right? Im still in denial sometimes too.
Sounds more like anxiety to me. You’ve had a lot of things going on in your life which would create anxiety, irritability and sometimes panic. Bipolar is a whole different thing. It’s extreme depression and mania. Cycles. Does not sound like you.
. You’re going to be OK. Do things that calm down your mind like meditation for anxiety, regular exercise and counseling.
My therapist did mention PTSD one time, but I have not really had anything that I THINK would be traumatic enough to cause things. But maybe deep down inside I was hurt or have created a fear of something that i do not really think about.
I hate it. Most of the time I kind of know it is anxiety and can sometimes just brush it off and continue about my day. and other times I think about every little thing I do, or think and it spirals so far out of control that it is hard to get back to normal.
Thank you! I do try to calm myself down. and MOST of the time I can get calmed back down within a couple of hours or so. Then sometimes I never "TRULY" get back to normal for a couple of weeks. I guess that is why I sometimes second guess it. It is never the same symptoms, never the same length of time, never the same anything, and I think that is the part that makes me wonder. But from looking at other conversations on this site, that is the normal. haha!
Hello.
How are you. Please dont worry God will do better. Dont be panic. I know how anxiety kills our happyness and life.There are many people in world who has same conditions like you. But you can beat anxiety if you have will power.
I have been in this anxiety for 22 year. I can understand it ruined our life. Even we want to suiside. I felt shorten of breath, dizzling, numbless. I feel i got heart attack and my heart is stoping. I left all my activities. I also lose my job. I feel i will going to be mad. Lightheaded and pain in my chest. No medicine gave me my life back. I feel i am going to die. My heart pounding. All family got tired and friends left me. No body likes i talk each time about anxiety. The panic attack did not go away.
I guess medicine is not permanent solution. Medicines makes us termperary relief.
3 year ago some one told me about a man mr Raza. Who lives in Pakistan. He can help me in my anxiety. I contact him 3 year ago. Feel nice and well . His treatment is natural and spritual. Now i am anxiety free. I hope he will give you time although he is very busy person, I suggest you to contact with him and save your life. If you want his contact i can give youh. His fee is not much. I givd 100 dollar per month. I believe moey is not important than health. It will your luck if he gives you time. Anxiety takes us toward death. But a day of death is fixed and ever one has to face it.
So you dont worry. Be brave. Take care.
It sounds very much like anxiety to me. Just the fact that you are thinking and thinking about it and worrying so much about it is a definite sign it's anxiety.
Not to push meds, but have you ever been prescribed an antidepressant? I went through a rough patch 5 years ago, went on an SSRI and it has really changed my life for the better. I'm having another rough patch now, but it's not near as bad as it was 5 years ago. Just something to think about.
I did try Lexapro one time and 6 hours after my first pill I had a really bad panic attack and way too much nervous energy the next day. I took it the next day and had another panic attack and decided it just was not for me. I tried klonopin but it took a really long time to get in my system and for the first 30 minutes or so after I took it, it seemed like my mind would race even faster. I just decided to try therapy and see if i could get it under control without medication. Ever since then I have not taken any medication, no antibiotics, no tylenol, no nothing. It made me terrified!