I have had the worst 12 months ever my partner who had 2 children who I loved dearly locked me out of my home I was still working but found out a girl I was working with had been seeing him I was told I was up for redundancy and I lost my job this year. I still feel hurt by all this and most days I don't get up and I cry a lot. I went to a new doctor yesterday who didn't want to know and I know feel I have nothing worth getting up for anymore. I am 38 and feel my life is over I have nothing in my life anymore and cannot see past it. I don't have friend or do anything. I have always suffered with depression and drank a lot but I went to rehab and have been 7 years sober now I thought life would get better but it's so much harder. Xxx
I had this view before sadly 
I also so thought the I have nothing to live for...
BUT then I thought what do I like the most? Atv and motorcycle.. And now I try to fulfill this dreams, it is not enough though.. I still getting sad and Fill bad, but less, try also changing suit, I went to buy a lot of new cloth wit new look, all of this changes helped me bit more each time
I understand what you're saying completely... I just wish I could offer some advice! I have been depressed for around 18 months this time, and I'm finding it hard to get through it. Do you have children of your own? Do you have another job yet? Well done on not drinking, I think my drinking is holding me back.
Jenny please ask to see another doctor and I can really understand what you are going through. My husband left me for a girl who I classed as a friend and from then my life was in a downward spiral and entered into some really bad relationships. I also drank from morning to night and eventually took an overdose which nearly cost me my life. Because of all this I lost my daughter who chose to live with her dad and almost lost my home.
Now 2 years later my life couldn't be any different - I've been dry for 2 years, my relationship with my daughter is back on track and we are closer than we have ever been. I am also in a good relationship. Please believe me that there is light at the end of the tunnel and things do get better - you won't believe me at all when I say that but look at me and 2 years ago I was in exactly the same position as yourself. So please honey hold on in there and see another doctor and if necessary change practices. There is light at the end of the tunnel xx
I agree with everything everone has said, your life being over at 38 though?? that is definately not true, I am 46 and joined a dating website (only do this when you are good and ready though, I made the mistake of doing it too soon), do try another doctor, took me months to finally admit I am depressed, there are lots of people out there in exactly the same situation as you, try a group therapy in your area talking to like minded people, try meditation to try to settle your mind, go for long walks, force yourself to do something, I am still in the first stages of depression like you but forcing myself out of the house does help, when you do decide to go out get yourself in the shower or bath and wear your favourite outfit, something simple as getting a hair cut made me feel good last week, start small this is not a race, it will take time but i'm sure we will all get there.