My symptoms started 3 months ago after an outing that included drinks with a coworker who brought up horrible time in my life that happaned 6 yrs ago; which included a toxic relationship,physical illness & potential loss of my job. Ever since that conversation my life & dreams have been shattered. The following day after hanging out with him, i developed severe brain fog and its been down hill since then. My life was amazing prior to that conversation. Idon't have a need to be anxious. I do not take any medication.
It all began after he asked if I was “depressed” in that relationship.
Which I responded: “That woman made me crazy”
And he followed with a word that affected me and created all these symptoms and that word was: “S” were you going to take your life away”
I immediately got scared and started convincing myself that I went crazy and I can’t shake that feeling off. I’ve been to therapy 6 times and I haven’t seen any improvement. I’m loosing hope by the day. Do you guys think Medication might help me? What should I do to unconvince myself that I’m fine when nothing is working?. Thanks
Symthoms:
Heart rate: my average heart rate is between 100-150bpm
Brain fog 24/7 Derealization(Worst at night, when trying to sleep)
Weight loss- 30 pounds so far
lack of sleep- sleeping around 3-4 hours a night
Cold feet 24/7
Feeling like i'm losing my mind
Actions taken to improve my life:
A lot prayers to God
Sorry, but God doesn't care. The only person who can get passed this is you. One of my favorite things to think about when I feel that my past is haunting me is to say the following, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is the present, and that's why they call it a gift". It doesn't matter what happened in the past. Unless you have invented a time machine, there is no way to go back and change anything. The only thing you can do is forgive those who hurt you and forgive yourself. Don't forget, but do forgive. Learn from past mistakes and think about the present which can only make your future better. Doesn't matter what happened in the past. It shapes us, but it doesn't define us. What defines us is the action we take today. There are many different methods to deal with your symptoms. Feel free to message me and ask specific questions. Good luck
Knight
It sounds like discussing your past has brought about Anxiety.
Your heart rate is a bit high, although it does depend on what you were doing just before taking it. Personally I do not check my heart, if I feel I need some checks I go and see my GP
Two stone weight loss can be problematic, although if you are on a diet that may be ok however I do not know how quick you have lost this weight and your weight before the loss
The old wives saying cold hands/feet warm heart.
How you describe your problems, you say you suffer Anxiety see your GP.
However do you feel this condition was instigated after the discussion you had regarding past problems.
Could these problems given time be pushed back into your past, you will move on once.
I would consider talking to your GP, regard what Has happened, you need to ask yourself if you need medications,
Your GP could also check you over and take various test, these may help you move on
BOB
Hi Bob,
My condition was instigated by that conversation. When I had the conversation with him I immediately began associating “depression” and “going crazy” with what happened to me 6 years ago, in which I got sick for 1 month while being with that particular person. I’m beginning to feel hopeless because my condition hasn’t improved. The googling synthoms made so much worst because I feel like I went crazy and need help trying to unconvince myself that I’m sane.
Knight
It is important you try and push your past, dead and buried, live for your day and move on. I look for diversions in life, something I enjoy. I have an Orchard that needs looking after and I have also learned to power boat at sixty six years old with several Chronic Disabilities. We have a dog and He needs walking, He is a Collie and He keeps us on our toes. We also live in the countryside and we watch nature out of the window.
I know above sounds a bit one centred although we find if we can divert our thoughts and learn other techniques from courses of CBT you may find life is not to bad and you can run with your interest when you feel low.
It does work for me, give it a try
BOB