HI there
Im 32 yrs old. I have had anxiety since childhood. I never went to school so my education is really poor. I started drinking alcohol at 15 for confidence. Then later on indulged in drugs. I've never been a good mixer so my social skills are also poor. I was diagnosed with genrelized anxiety disorder & depression at 25. Was put on paroxetine for a few years then became addicted. I fell pregnant later on & had to come off them quite suddenly. The withdraw was horrendous. After having my baby i was put on citalopram but felt worse so i stopped taking them after a while. I'm on nothing now & honestly feel I'm at wits end. I have a tremor my voice shakes i feel so paranoid & self concious. I dread going out most days but i keep pushing through it for my baby. I feel let down by my doctor as he doesn't want to know really. My local health team promised me cognitive behaviour therapy but then told me i couldn't have it. I cant go on like this it's ruled me all my life. I feel like a crazy woman with zero confidence. Can anyone give me advice on how to get rid of g.a.d for good. X
Hi rainbow,
Please take someone to the doctor with you - a strong person who cares about you. Or change your doctor.
I am speaking from experience and a doctor who does not understand mental health issues or care shouldn't be a doctor.
Chatting to a health visitor may help or perhaps you could self refer.
In the UK 'mind' charity can assess you and if they think you need more help than they themselves can offer, will refer you to a mental health team.
Don't let your doctor let you down, I did and I wish I took someone with me years ago.
I wish you all the best.
S
Hi rainbow, I know what depression is, my social skills are poor too. I have been cirtalopram, howing other meds. I suggest seek advice from your gp. Hope this has help.
Rainbow,
i think you know that the anxiety and depression is not going away soon but I agree with other posts, you need to get your GP to understand or get a second opinion. Stay strong and get someone to help you fight (verbally)
Thankyou all so much for your comments. Ive had a good cry this morning & feeling abit better for it. I hate feeling this way. Everything feels a big effort all the time. I'd love to feel normal. To beable to walk around with out my mind racing my heart racing unsteady on my feet. Almost suffocated at times. And i feel like the whole worlds poking fun at me. Thats happened to be alot in my life. I think i will give my doctor another go. I dont really want to take medication as in my experience it works for a while then stops and the dosage goes up & up. And i felt worse for it. I do appreciate your advice tho all of you. It feels a lonely place most times. X
You are not alone, we may only be words on a screen but behind those words are people who truly feel for you and many of us understand how you feel. You are stronger than you think and while you have an understandable worry about taking medication it can help whilst you look at other methods of therapy to help you on your journey
Thankyou david. I feel a mess today. Cant stop crying. I could control my mental state to a point before but now my physical symptoms take over. My hands shake like a leaf. I'm so embarrassed as people notice. I feel a walking disaster. You t.c x
Rainbow daft question but have you tried yoga?
Hi Rainbow,
Your story sounds very similar to mine. I'm 33 and have 2 little boys. I have suffered with anxiety and depression for years and years. Had a drug problem before my kids were born but I managed to stop that. I have the crappest social skills all because I feel inferior to everyone and it stops me from trying to make friends and do stuff. I feel like everyone is better than me. My confidence is non existent.
I'm not sure where about a you are but you really do need to get some help. If you think your GP is pointless then have a look into self referral for mental health problems. There could be services that you could access without needing to go through your GP. That's what I did and I'm currently in an anxiety CBT group which helps a bit.
Try Mind, Samaritans and I think there's a few helplines that you could call. Perhaps do a bit of Googling and see what you find.
Good luck girl. Keep going and posting on here if it helps you xx