I am at the lowest of the low, how can I help myself until the meds kick in. I am going through a health scare I had a bleed from my bowel the GP says it was more than likely a local bleed because it was bright red but to keep an eye if it persists. This is really scaring me.
This is causing me to get so down I am scared to check and can no longer cope with these feelings. I went to see my GP on Monday and he has prescribed diazipam to take now and Citalopram. I can't seem to calm myself and I am in complete panic inside I can't eat because I feel sick and can't stay off the loo. What can I do.
firstly i suffer from panic attacks and depression which have been bought on due to my contraceptive implant i have in my arm ( being taken out today in 2 hours !!) so i know how you are feeling. I have been experiancing lately lots of unusual symptoms bone pain , dizzyness etc...
which led me to an even worser state of depression. I am taking fluoxetine which is not bad but i have also taken it into my own hands to talk to someone professional about my situation. I think if your gp thought there was anything seriosly wrong then they would have told you... if you are still not happy then you have the right to demand tests etc to satify .. so you will know.. please don't panic it really does make every thing so much worse... i do know .
Hi Saph,
Was it just a single occurence of the bleeding? If it was bright red in colour. as ur doctor said, it should be nothing to worry about. Sometimes we we pass stools, they can scrape the soft tissue in the inside of the anus, causing it to bleed. Can happen more so when we`re constipated.
Bleeding from the back passage due to such things as bleeding ulcers etc, is usually dark in colour, and the stools may be black also.
If it persists, go back to ur GP.
Try not to worry too much, epecially as ur mood is low. As Vicki says, it makes the anxiety worse.
Good Luck and Take Care
Lindy..x
Thank you both for your replies, I know its probably nothing but I just can't get these feelings to to go away. The bleeding was a couple of weeks ago and I have been going downhill since. When I saw the blood I nearly collapsed with fright, fortunately within an hour I had an emergency appointment with my GP, he gave me a internal exam and couldnt find anything but I bled everytime I went to the loo that day, I freaked and was sick every time I saw more. I think I saw some more today but my head is in such a spin I don't know whether its because I am not eating properly. I have always been a very nervous person and anything sets me off and I end up with the runs. You could say I am S***g myself with fear.
I have just turned 60 and everything seems to have a double meaning at the moment every ache and pain is something sinister. I have suddenly become terrified at the thought of something happening to my husband and being left alone. its as if everything is spiraling out of control and there is nothing I can do about it..
I went through a very bad depression in the 70s-80s and was hospitalized. I can now see myself going the same way if I don't get to grips with this. I had a really bad panic attack on Monday so went straight to my GP who prescribed the Diazipan and Citalopram, I do hope it kicks in soon I don't know how much more I can take before I start going mad.
Hi Saph,
Don't know if you will read this - Vicky is right, if the bleeding is from you bowels, it would be black. Red blood indicates a tear in the outlet of the anus or haemorrhoids (but those the doctor should have been able to see). If your skin has been torn down there, it occasionally re-opening would be less astonishing then no re-occurrence at all.
Do you have enybody who can help you to monitor your mood somewhat? Just to keep an eye on it. Keeping a mood diary may help, too. Our memory is not always the best indicator. Short entries will do, \"low, anxious most of day\" \"anxious twice today, intensely so, but in between fine\" \"good day today\" - stuff like that. Any bleeding can be entered, too. It helps with any doctor you may see in future, bee it for the bleeding, be it for the anxiety.
Hope you are better by now.
All the best,
Heidi
Thanks mum-to-be, I have an appointment at the hospital tomorrow to find out whats going on, its been over a month now and I am still getting the bleeds. The AD's I think are kicking in I feel a bit calmer in myself and not quite as panicy.
30 years ago when I had my breakdown I kept a diary for a couple of years, my psychiatrist start to see a pattern. It turned out my hormones were playing havoc with my system which was making my blood count dangerously low and this was messing with my head. I ended up having an emergency hysterectomy when I was 34, I have been fine ever since. I had a bad episode last week and was taken to A&E, I thought I was dying, I never want to experience that kind of terror again it was awful. They took bloods kept an eye on my blood pressure because it was through the roof and again the doc said that my blood count was low, whether this is whats causing me to bleed and go into this depression I have know idea, I hope I get an answer soon to find out whats going on.