Hemorrhoids and Depression

Im on this forum now because i'm at the point of looking for anti depresants to help me with this awfull condition.

I had piles during my 1st pregnancy and at the birth of my first child but they went within a week so when I got them again after the delivery of my second baby I wasnt concerned, however to cut a long story short 16 months later I have had internal, prolapsed and external piles. I've had them thrombose internally and externally and developed fissures and a Polyp. I've seen 4 different surgens both privately and NHS and have had an Anal streatch, banding, Stapled Hemorrhoidectomy (PPH) botox injection for a fissure, a polypectomy and just last week dopler guided litication (Halo) and skin tag removal but here I am laying in bed unable to work, look after my kids, walk or do anything. Everyone is really putting themselves out for me and my friends and family have been great but they cant go on taking time off and asking about me forever.

I still have this feeling of unbeleivable fullness, burning, stinging and after the last operation it looks like I have a new inflamed external hemorrhoid. Its gone way past embaresement for me. I need to get better because I can not live like this much longer.

I eat really well and take lactulose to keep my stools soft but i'm unable to exersise.

Im so depressed and just want to feel normal again. Go for a walk, take the kids to the park, go on holiday, find a job I cant belive all the things this horrible condition is making me miss. I feel like ive missed my baby growing up. I know how lovely it is to be a mum because I enjoyed every minuet with my first baby but now i'm a different person in an awfull place.

Any words of advice or wisdom would be great. Anyone who has got through this or is currentlly going through it and wants to talk.

not all doctors are experienced and they are just interested in getting a job done to eliminate a patient from coming to the doctors surgery again. Doctors these days are not really helpful.

For example, to get rid of a problem once and for all, they may recommend a hemmorhoidectomy straight way rather than try out other procedures and you coming back if it didnt work properply

Put simple, i got my doctor too get my pharmisist to make up caspian cream, after i poo i put the cream in and around my anus, then it will really burn, at this point i get into the shower and wash it off with warm to hot water i prefer hot, insure good jet pressure, i do this every time i poo! Hope this helps, my life improved dramaticly when i found the best way for me too treat this trually awful condiction! It will get better, chin up!

Fruit Factory, I have just read your post and noticed it is some time ago since you wrote it. I sincerely hope you're better?

You have my deepest sympathy - I have suffered for years (since childhood and now I'm 38 ) with bowel issues: fissures, chronic constipation (which landed me in A&E once with a faecal impaction), external piles and so on. Doctors have told me over the years there was nothing they could do and as we have a family history of bowel problems I believed it was something I just had to live with.

However, everything took a real nosedive in the last six months and I was getting large excruiatingly painful lumps externally after every BM and it was affecting my life. My doctor examined me and said I had several large internal piles that were prolapsing with every BM. I had no idea the problem was internal.

Last Thursday I had a sygmoidoscopy, banding and injection of the internal piles and an injection of Botox into the sphincter muscle. This Botox injection seems to me to be the only treatment you don't list as having had. It is designed to stop the muscle spasming during and after a BM and lasts for about 3 months. I have no idea if this would help you but perhaps it might be worth asking your doctor if you've tried everything else?

The other wonderful thing I have been prescribed is Movicol. This is a sachet of powder you dissolve in water and take as necessary. It makes your stools unbelievably soft and has created for me a daily need for a BM when previously I have only had one 3 times a week. I took a sachet morning and night for a week prior to my op last week and have been taking it 3 times a day since just because I was so scared of the pain of going to the loo after the op. But its been OK. Also have you ever used Protesedyl ointment? It is that which has got me through the last God knows how many years. It is an anaesthetic and anti-inflammatory cream that can be used internally and externally. It's very very effective.

It's early days yet and no-one can tell me if this procedure will be a success longterm. Clearly my problems are nowhere near as bad as yours but if either of these things could help a little.....

Where abouts are you in the UK? I can give you the name of the surgeon who operated on me if you're anywhere near Yorkshire. He has a fantastic reputation - I did a lot of research before going ahead.

Hopefully you're much better by now and don't need any of the above. It would be great if you could post an update...

Sooze