Boy oh boy, i came here 3 months ago talking about the same problem in which i am feeling like I'm a disappointment to my parents because of my grades/ i don't study, they think I'm smart and that I'm just slacking off and id i actually sit down and study i will be fine! But in truth i have never got a good grade even if i did study! Just because of my sister they think that way (my sister gets straight A's) well anyhow enough of that lets talk about why it is worse than 3 months ago 1- i started blamimg my parents for it 2- i started to cry less 3- i started to think of cutting but i wouldn't dare to do it so i just have this broken ruler that i scratch myself with 4- i started to think about suicide and how much i wanna die! I have tried multiple times but i got too scared and also because of my religion, and also for metaphore i feel like my arms are disabled and people keep telling me how it's all in my head and how if i just tried hard enough i could move them. Thank you for your time I'll probably regret this later ^^
Hi reem48221 - sorry to read you are suffering. Have you talked to your parents about the unrealistic attitude they have towards your studies? That you are you and not your sister? Have you sought any sort of counseling or seen a doctor about what you are feeling? Is there a counsellor available at school for you to see? The point is that you need assistance to help you through - someone who can refer you on to other professionals if necessary.
Yes i talked to my parents about it they always say that i just dont study and get mad if i told them that they have high expectations of me that i cant fullfil, and no theres any counsellor at my school, and we're not that great at financial support atm but even if i told them they wouldn't listen to me and i also think that my problem isn't that big to go see a doctor