My gawd how can hormones do this?? I am walking such a precarious line. I am on track for getting onto BHRT but damn it it's taking too long!! If the doctor was in this much agony I guaran damn tee it they would get help STAT!! It's scary to be this ill for this long. 2 years now!! I am absolutely homebound. I want so badly to just crawl right out of my skin. I hate this feeling. I have the most intense inner tension and body aches, crying throughout the day and night, hot AND cold simultaneously!! Totally exhausted. I have another post just like this one from 2 weeks ago. Every day is Groundhog Day (the movie) for me. Super pity party. I sometimes wonder if my fear of death is causing me to be so incredibly sick that I actually welcome it. Gimme the damn BHRT before somebody gets hurt!!
Take a deep breath hon... i feel same way I force myself to go with the husband to do groceries today and BAM nauseas set in and i was like I felt sick and my chest felt being slightly tight. I took a deep breath I’m ok . But aloways uneasy . We are in this together . I’m exhausted all the time . This website is the best .
Oh honey I totally relate to pushing yourself to do something ordinary, like getting the freaking mail!! My husband just had shoulder replacement surgery two days ago so I am trying my best to care for him. Poor guy is in pain and has to listen to this crazy, crying, sobbing woman throughout the day. He doesn't complain at all about the pain he is in. But he totally understands how I do because I have been miserable for so, so long. This time next week his pain will be half of what it is today. This time next week for me will continue to be hell. It's not fair. I am so sorry you are going through this. We don't deserve it. Your words help me hon. Because you really know how I feel. Thank you.
I'm exhausted all the time too.. I nap when I can but then kids/spouse come in and ask why I'm laying in bed. It's very annoying!! I do get out shopping for what I need but would much rather stay home. I try to eat well and exercise when I can.
I'm often cold. Take many supplements and get this.... I'm on day 14 of my period!! This is a pain because I can't plan anything!! I think this is normal but I'm just used to it being done by day 4 or 5.
I know right! I think doctors who deal with menopausal patients really need to have gone through the menopause! Otherwise they can be clueless about how bad it can be and how badly it can upturn your life. Im on anti anxiety meds but im sure if a doctor had taken me seriously all the many times i went in about chronic indigestion, palpitations, increasing anxiety etc, i couldve gone on hrt and avoided ending up with anxiety disorder and put on antidepressants! Feeling lots better after a year on meds but id rather have tried hrt first! Why is it taking so long for you?
Hi Leslie
The 'death is lurking' feeling, yes thats one I have most days. I have been in peri for 6 years now. Ive told myself that because I have felt like this for 6 years and not died then I can only attribute everything to perimenopause. HRT is not for me so Ive just got to tough it out. My heart goes out to you as I know exactly how you feel x
Hi Leslie,I think the same I'm trying hard each day to get through it I don't sleep properly and my appetite is not good I'm not fat so I'm worried I would loose to much and die how bad is that too,I use to be house bound but I'm forcing myself out the door most days I have had good days through the 8 Peri years and miss them very much and I'm praying for that day to come for it to lift I was told over and over I will be fine and it will go away but as each day passes I don't see no light yet I hope you feel better soon.
Hi I had a surgical menopause not long ago. I had to wait to have hrt because of recovery . I know what you feel about the feel death is lurking feeling. I was in bed a sleep about two weeks after the op. I suddenly woke up with the most intense feeling of terror. It wasn't a panic attack there was no palpitations or breathlessness. It was a still feeling of absolute total terror that something bad was going to happen there and then. It lasted about an hour,I was so frightened I nearly ran outside (it was 4am). I couldn't cry I had to pray and pace about.it eventually went off but I was terrified. I know it was definitely because of the menopause because I've never had that before ever. I went to drs the next day and begged for hrt. It was terrifying. I haven't had it again but I'm petrified of it happening again.
Hi Jackie,, I had some kind of Anxeity attack on me in bed can't explain it but I know it was hormones how awful but I let do what it like and I'm still here thank god.
Leslie are you getting any vitamins or help or just waiting for the HRT. I am asking because unfortunately HRT it is not for everyone and doesn't guarantee anything. I am menopausal 1 years and at the beginning of 2017 through the whole f.. year I was feeling like you and all our friends here I tried HRT and for my anxiety was worse. Want really worked was no meds a all beside the indispensable in my case thyroid med in the morning and BP in the night but during day I just try to breath a a lot, walk when I can. I take a lot of vitamins B Stress complex in the morning, multivitamin mid day and B12 afternoon, Bach flowers pills every time that I needed and I am much much better. I have super days and low days like everyone but big change with me. Hope this help you
Your getting better that's why especially if your not on hormones vitamins I don't take its all powder form stuff and you don't know with them either I think the draw stops when it's ready
Yeah, it can make you feel like your are dying. It's awful.
The BHRT didn't do much for me, but I only stayed on for a about 4 months. But maybe it will help you.
XO
I hear ya Kelly. Thank goodness for Amazon! Lol
Hi Jackie. Did you know that hrt would help that feeling? Im not taking anything but if hrt helps with health anxiety, i may consider it.
Hi I didn't know that hrt would definitely help but I knew that the feeling of being terrified was due to my menopause and having no hormones. So I kind of assumed that putting hormones back would stop it or at least make it a bit better. My GP agreed that hrt would probably help. I haven't had it again thank goodness so I think the hrt is helping. Anxiety is absolutely horrible ,I hope you find something that helps you.
Thank you jackie
Hi Kelly :-) I am post menopausal. I had a uterine hysterectomy in 2002. I was put on antidepressants in 1996 and finally got off of them Jan 2016. I believe most of my perimenopausal symptoms were masked due to the antidepressants. I had no idea about perimenopause and looking back I can see that the emotional instability that I suffered all of those years, contributed to divorce and subsequent separation from my own 4 children. 2 of them remain estranged even today. Hormonal imbalance is entirely overlooked and labeled mental illness instead. I am moving toward BHRT with a gyn but due to health anxiety I am nervous about the "C" risks. It's strange how us gals are so articulate on this forum and seem so balanced in our writing yet if you could see me you would not see a balanced, well functioning woman. My heart goes out to all of you. Sincerely.
Hi Julie. (Hugs). I think the reason it's taking a long time, at least in part, is due to my health anxiety and not trusting doctors. My GP prescribed an antidepressant a couple of months ago, which I won't take because I really want to get to the bottom of what is causing my symptoms. In two years she never even mentioned checking my hormone levels. I decided on my own to order a home test kit. It revealed that I am very imbalanced. She keeps pushing the "anxiety and depression" diagnosis down my throat and throws it in my face that I am resisting her help. I just had my first appointment with the gyn a couple of days ago. Unfortunately it's a male gyn who finds this stuff (women's hormones) "fascinating", yes he actually said that to me. I feel like I am dying and he finds it fascinating. ( I know he didn't mean that, but still, don't say words like fascinating in the presence of a patient who is suffering, ya dumbass). I have this inner tension and I search all over the internet trying to find someone else who has this, what it is, what's causing it, how to stop it. In the evening my hearing becomes extra sensitive and my eyes become sensitive to light. I can only sleep by taking Restoril. I dunno. Really wish I could just go natural but I'm just too messed up anymore.
Hi hon. I can`t say oh I'm so glad to hear someone else feels as though they're dying. I am moved by your endurance through this absolutely difficult and lengthy chapter of your life. It is comforting in a strange way to see that other women describe it as I do. It's scary for me to not really know for certain what is wrong with me. We're attributing my symptoms to postmenopause but I really do not know if I am suffering from something else. My digestive system is messed up. I get hot AND cold simultaneously, or separately. Rashes. Crashing fatigue, insomnia. What kind of life is this? I can't even participate. I'm an artist and because I am so tired I can't even create anything. Gosh, sorry for venting. I am just dumping on everyone. I appreciate your perspective about 6 years and still here. I will remind myself of that. You've gotta be reaching a turning point here pretty soon I would think. You're brave hon. Sending hugs.