Oh well... it was only a matter of time. Hello my lovely friends, I am still an "elbow hole" ! Freaking lost it, after 14 days. Sick, sick, sick. All wined out. 'Wish I was dead... same old, same old, same old.
Hi Alonangel...I still wake up early although I do not drink anymore but it seems to me that you are in bad state today?? 14 days and had wine yesterday?? Try to stop immediately and back to no drinking IF you can. Forget it and do not blame yourself....you can do it!! Best of luck and I MEANT IT!! Robin
Did you take the Selincro and wait the 2 hours?
If so, then it is not a failure. It is just part of the process and you have learned that the drink didn't do as expected, even after 14 days. Your brain was expecting something that it didn't get, so it is one step nearer the end goal of indifference towards alcohol, and less likely to try it again...
Were you AF for 14 days, Alonangel? That's a huge accomplishment! Keep on with the Selincro, you've a ways to go yet. Outstanding job so far, I'd say!
I'll go out on a limb here, but at a guess, with the tone of the post, I would say Selincro was not involved here. This would not be controlled drinking. I could be wrong, but that is what my gut is telling me.
Hello Alon,
This is very simple, it was a lapse, we all have them, there is no shame in that.
Now this is the important bit. It is how you deal with it, that shapes us. Consider it a blip and carry on the good work or wallow in self pity and drink even harder to forget.
There is a right and wrong choice, make the right one.
My gut feeling too, sadly, but I hope we are wrong....
I did mention to Alonangel at about the 7 or 8 days AF stage not to push it too far, because on this method the tablet needs to be taken as soon as a craving hits in order to have the 2 hours wait time and the ability to drink controlled. Waiting too long and trying to white-knuckle it is counter productive to this method and just means that when the almost inevitable fall happens, the person either doesn't take the tablet or is craving too bad that they have lost the ability to try and drink slowly.
If the tablet wasn't taken, or the 2 hours wait didn't happen then the best thing to do is to immediately take the tablet today and engage in controlled drinking again. If the brain got the endorphin rush from drinking again, then it need to immediately know that it isn't going to get it again.
It's a glitch Angel.Get back in the horse and start again
Robin,
Alonangel is using a method where someone HAS to drink on the medication to get the overall result at the end of the treatment. Something happened here that meant she lost control by the sound of it. I am thinking one of the following 3 things might've happened:
Either she didn't take the tablet, she didn't wait the 2 hours or the intention was to get drunk. If Alon did take the tablet and wait the 2 hours then she will face today without the compulsion to continue into further mindless drinking.
But if Alon didn't take the tablet, or didn't wait the 2 hours, then the right thing to understand is that you immediately need to stamp out your brain's cravings by taking the tablet and having a drink in a controlled fashion again. If you do that, then YOU regain control and your brain doesn't start going off in the direction of a runaway train.
Thank you for your replies. I don't know what to do for the best, today. I had not taken the Selincro before the 'blipping binge'!
I am so disappointed in myself. I know that I should take the tablet and try controlled drinking, again... but I don't really want to drink at all.
It's a dilemma to deal with. I can't decide how to deal with it.
Thanks again for caring with your support.
Alonangel 🎇
Hi Joanna,
"The runaway train went over the hill and she blew" !!!
Oh dear. I was very stressed out... lost the plot etc.
Alonangel 😩
You should do what I suggested above. Today. Don't wait.
Your brain has had the kick from alcohol again and if you do nothing, then it will start to nag away at you until you drink again.
Taking the Selincro, waiting and drinking is the way you will get to not drinking at all, but in the meantime you need to immediately stamp on any possibilities that you brain starts to crave badly again.
You did 14 days this time, that's awesome, but you pushed it just a little too far. Next time might be a month, or two months. But it's VITAL that you understand that this is a process and that you must not try fight against it and try whitekuckle abstinence.
The lessen to be taken from this is that you are not quite ready for abstinence yet, but you are getting there. The Selincro is working and it's doing what it should. Don't turn back and stop the treatment, keep going with it and you will get there.
Hello RHGB,
I am trying to stop the wallowing... there is only so much self-pity I can bear. I need to decide how to go about the right choice.
Thank you for the good advice.
Alonangel 🎇
Thanks, Nicole. I am looking for the right horse !
Alonangel 🎇
Thanks, ADEfree. I am trying to decide how to fix things.
Alonangel 🎇
Thank you, Robin. I don't know what to do for the best.
Alonangel 🎇
Don't get too down on yourself, it's self-defeating.
Instead, know that had you taken the Selincro then it all would've worked out completely differently. You most likely would've had two or three drinks, it wouldn't have answered the call, you would've gone 'meh' and put it down.
You would've woken and understood it for what it was - another step towards complete indifference towards alcohol.
Just knowing that may help you make the take the tablet next time something like this builds up.
Thank you, Joanna,
I know you are right.
Alonangel 🎇
I suppose what I am trying to tell you, Alon, is that taking Selincro is like taking a course of anti-biotics for an infection.
If you stop taking the anti-biotics before the end of the course (even though you might be feeling better) then the infection will fight back and you will end up right back where you started.
That is exactly the same as with Selincro. You are part way through and things are getting better. Didn't you say it was years since you've even had 1 alcohol free day, let alone 14?
But you must keep on with the method until you reach the end goal of indifference. It WILL happen.
You are at a fork in the road and you have two choices. Continue on. Or don't. It's your choice, but I do hope that you will take strength in the fact that none of us have ever lied to you on this forum, and have the trust in us to help you make that decision.
I will take the tablet, today. Taking control, hopefully.