OMG! I cannot believe that here I am 53 years old & find out about 2 months ago I've been fighting this GOD AWFUL HORRID HERPES II for over 5 months, been broken out & MISERABLE all this time! About 2 weeks ago was FINALLY clear for 5 days....but that didn't last very long! It's back & just as intense as the 1st BREAKOUT! My stomach is still swollen & I guess this is what has caused me to gain so much weight in the last 5-6 months??? IDK?? All I do know is that I DO NOT believe I've had this all my life (as SEVERE STRESS & ANXIETY are my middle names), I'm VERY ANGRY-as I know this SOB (sorry-but it's TRUE) knows he had it & didn't tell Me & to boot-dated for almost a year-not once did we have sex-everything else but (because I can't-lining of the walls thinning-hurt really bad & I just couldn't & he NEVER complained...now I know why + He was always "sick" & needed "his alone time"-I refuse to say 1 word to him about it even though we still have a lot of the same friends & agreed to be friends (NOT-I CANNOT STAND HIM BECAUSE OF THIS)-I feel DIRTY & ASHAMED & even worse, feel like I'll never have ANY TYPE of relationship with a man ever again because of this!!! It really stinks...Here I am 53 years old, have a 22 year old in college fixing to graduate, lost the love of my life (her Daddy & my Husband of over 20 years) this July will be 5 years ago, no insurance, no income, live with my Mother, SSDI keeps refusing me & I qualified years ago-have like 14-15 of "their" qualified disabilities - results of all of my mini-strokes, 10 in all AND NOW HERPES II ??!! God help Me PLEASE! So here I sit the day before Mother's Day so miserable, feel like I have a cold, no energy-tired & too much to do, insanely itching (especially at night) broken out AGAIN & God only knows how long its going to last this time & by myself-My Mom is in rehab-she just got over double pneumonia in the early part of April-on a breathing machine for 6 days & poor thing has Degenerative Scoliosis and Arthritis & is learning how to walk & swallow all over again-She's doing SO GREAT-still to this day, My Mom is My ROCK at 75 years old-God love her-I'm SO BLESSED to still have her!
My Dr. has Me on Acyclovir 800 Lidocaine Hydrochloride Jelly w/ 2% & still MISERABLE!
ANYONE....PLEASE...HELP...ALL can do is CRY!!! ):