Well all those msgs were definitely helpful to read! I’ve been on cit 20mg for 7 weeks now with no noticeable changes! Well i too went trough the 1st 2 weeks of ■■■■! I felt jittery, anxious pounding heart, a brain that was stuck in 4th gear you name it but i stayed with and im proud of myself in doing so! I was just so hopeful i would be feeling so much better by now but its not being as effective for me as others! There are some mornings i wake up feeling just so depressed i want to die! I have no idea why this is happening. I dont drink or smoke weed but i do smoke cigarettes though! I manage to get out of bed on these mornings and make a green tea and take my meds (1 being 1mg of klonipin 3 times a day my anxiety is very very severe!) After an hour or so i start to feel alittle bit better but not 100% Just waking up feeling so bad inside really has me upset for most of the day. I managed to make an appt with my dr 2morrow and will discuss this with him. Perhaps i need to goto 40mg? I do feel some relief however, i sleep throughout the night, i make small talk in the elevator (something ive never done before) when i have a strange thought like who will help take care of me when im 70 (strange thought im only 50) i am now able to rationalize the thought and realize its uncalled for and it soon passes and i dont seem to dwell on it like i used too. Yes some improvement but 20mg just doesnt seem to be as effective as i had thought! Ive always had to take high dosages of ADs in the past so maybe 40mg will be my sweet spot! Will find out 2morrow at the docs! Fingers crossed here i just want to feel normal again! BTW me mum passed away Sept 20th 2018 and i now live alone in the apartment with my 3 cats. I just feel so alone and miss her so much. I hope the med helps me I sure need help with this!
Sorry for long post
Absolutely no need to apologise for a long post. Your post was very open, brave and honest and sometimes it’s not easy to get across what you need to say in a short post. In a way those of us on this drug are quite isolated as nobody else can know what its like to take it. I know that what I post IS understood by those of you on this forum. Believe me that really helps me. I can identify with quite a lot that you’ve said UnknownStranger. Sometimes daily life can be a struggle and that’s without the side effects but most of us keep going don’t we? I know this forum helps me get things into perspective. I may not post that much but I do read posts and their replies. Thank you for sharing UnknownStranger.
Hi unknown stranger,My advice would be for you too stay on 20 mgs as 7 weeks is not long enough .You should stay on them for at least another 3/4 weeks and if you still feel anxious and depressed then suggest to your doctor to go up too 30 mgs only.Leaping too 40 mgs is way way too much,but do remember every time you change dosage you will get side effects again
Hey Ron thank you so much for reading my post it was long and yes it was honest of course it was. But I dpnt feel so alone now… its a terrible suffering let me tell you! I saw my doc today and he agreed that after 7 weeks and no change in mood at all its time to try 30mg… I see him in 6 weeks for a follow up… I truly hope I feel better by then because I feel like I might need to go to the hospital… this massive depression and anixiety has been a part of my life… i drank alot in my 20s to self medicatate made things worse and I think all that drinking might have caused brain damage… im not sure… so… 30mg now and will post weekly on my progress maybe it might help someone and they can see in time that yes… there is hope and a better life for us that suffer… thanks again Ron!
Bless you bro!
Hiya Marsh!
I saw my doc today and he agreed that i should go to 30mg and see him in 6 weeks… I will always be here for my new found friends… I can understand you all so much and it is so helpful!
For those that are starting this med… yes… 2 weeks of side effects and they can be bad but tuff it out cuz I did! and i am serious it can be bad but i was so determined to see this through and the possible advantages afterwards i made it… im proud of myself…, if i can do it any one can do it hold on to your beliefs and hope!!
Best regards!
wow i would stay on 20for a few more weeks. it took me 8months to recover.good luck
i made a big mistake about 6 months ago (well for me it was a big mistake). I was on 40mg of citalopram and was coming to the end of 2 years of group therapy. I thought I had learned about how my thinking and the way I dealt with my emotions would continue to improve without the drug. I, with my doc’s approval reduced and eventually stop taking it. I’m not coping as well as I hoped and not too long started taking it again. The second time getting back on it was pure hell and I was only on 10mg!! God knows what I would have done without this forum. A few days ago I increased the dose to 20mg. So far so good. Not too side effected… I now know that like some physical illnesses I need to take the drug. If you need to go into hospital (hope you don’t though) then so be it. Before I retired I worked on a psych ward and i know just how difficult if can be for some patients. What I remember though is just how many patients it helped. If a physical illness becomes unmanagable at home then that person is helped by being admitted to hospital. The only difference is most physical illness are seen. Our illnesses are hidden. I wish you well. Like Spock said “live long and prosper”
i dont have that luxury of waiting for months or i will end up in a hospital that cares very little about me… im just a number to them… do you really think they care about you you you… sadly no… trust me im 50 years old been there and yes you are a number to them and and a money maker for them. it is very sad. this can be done at home… you need hope, confidence in yourself and an outlook on your life when it works/…please trust me ok! im in a very bad state in me life… but i have to state that after 7 weeks to how i was is a big improvement… just be hopeful and kate said care about yourself more/// its so very impotanr
so if the higher milligrams work for you so be it.isnt it about time you stay on your med for ever .dont you hate suffering when you come off only to come back on again only to suffer again with restarting?i know i would never play Russian roulette with my celexa.iam recovered been two and a half years on celexa and yes i feel lovely but i feel lovely because of the celexa.i would never come off to only get back on again.and i wouldn’t trade my good feelings for curiosity.
when i get back to a therapeutic dose I’m never going to come off it again. I’ve learnt my lesson.
I think im on citalopram for life! I deserve to be happy in life~!
I think i might be on citalopram for the rest of my life unless medical breakthroughs are made addressing our situation?
im surprised that not one of you gave me hell for taking 3mg on clonazapam… i find you all non judemental when it comes to our medication that we take to be human again!
thank you all from the bottom of my heart i found this site and i am here to stay! i will give weekly updates on how its working for me if thats ok? just maybe i can help someone… just maybe and i would in return feel proud of myself!
Kate you are amazing!
regards James