hi all , a few of you will know as im sure I’ve been driving everyone mad that my most recent fixation is Hiv or hepatitis because I shared a rolled up banknote to snort drugs . im very ashamed of this and wont do it again but the time i shared was with two friends whos health status gives me no reason to belive they are hiv or hep positive. my partner is going insane listening to me worry and has asked that unless i turn yellow from jaundice I just let it go, he feels like me getting Constant test for reassurance is just feeding my anxiety.. I kinda believe him here. The likelihood of me catching a disease from my two good friends is slim to none , how can I start moving on without the reassurance of a doctors test and just put it down to a lesson learnt . would love to trust those around me rather and myself rather than spend money all the time for unneccesary check up ? my drug using might sound like a real risk but I’ve even checked up on Hiv before after getting a wax at a beauty clinic. my head goes crazy when I read things online . i would love some tips from others likeminded
Hello friend,
Speaking from personal experience I have suffered Chronic Anxiety on and off for 8 years .
I had something sharp go through the sole of my shoe in an area where drug users hang around.
Massive Anxiety, went to hospital, they reffered me to the local Sexual Health clinic who did full tests for Hep B&C, HIV and other stuff.
I was bricking it! , the tests were 3 or 4 one month apart so imagine that.
All came back 100% clear
I have had many other things in my life that have caused me crippling anxiety and worry but have recently turned to Buddhist teachings on calming the mind. (I am not advising you to, just explaining what worked for me)
Once we learn that our mind is a constant stream of thought and the thoughts are like leaves passing on a mountain stream, we can reach in and hold on to the thought or acknowledge it and put it back in the stream and watch it float away.
You must become the watcher of your thoughts.
Maybe try a little meditation to still your mind. Free app called Plum Village on play store.
Peace🙏
thankyou , i know exactly what you mean in regards to anxiety being completely debilitating .
i know i have put myself in a risky situation but ive even seen myself not eating food because i seen a red spot ( which was probably tomato or something )
my mind literally runs wild . i have tried the meditation with no luck in helping but ill give it another go .
thankyou so much
Have you tried seeing a therapist for your anxiety? I suffer from health anxiety as well, and seeing a therapist really helps me.