Hello everyone,
I've written about this before, but after last night I just have to do it again in hopes some of you actually managed to break a vivious cycle like this.
I've never been a great sleeper, I would in the course of my life often have trouble falling asleep, but the silver lining of that kind of insomnia would be that once I would fall asleep, I would stay asleep as long as I needed.
Now my insomnia completely changed its M.O. and has made a 180° turn in the last two years. I now FALL asleep mostly without a problem (since I'm exhausted), but no matter what SOMETHING wakes me up early in the morning and I can't STAY asleep. I used to fix this with Valium, but lately it's not been working as well, which isn't a surprise after one uses it for two years instead of two weeks.
I'm desperate. When I had trouble falling asleep in the past, I realised I was mostly doing it to myself, worrying about sleep and what would happen if I missed my chance to sleep at night, but I BEAT that insomnia by changing my mindset, not caring what happens if I don't sleep and KNOWING that things will correct themselves after I got a couple of "good nights" in a row. And it worked!
But this? These sneaky subconscious awakenings once I'm already sleeping, how do I fight that? How do I beat that? Night after night I sleep for 5 or 6 hours, and if I understand sleep restriction correctly things should improve after a while, but I'm stuck at this "limit" , and it isn't enough for me to function properly in my daily life.
I'm sorry for the rant , but please if you have ANY suggestions, share them with me. I'll try anything, is there a sleeping pill designed specifically for returning to sleep? When I fall asleep at night I can feel how my brain is tired and how it lulles me into sleep, but whencI wake up that feeling is gone, like I've used up the melatonin for that day and now I have nothing to initiate sleep on.
Once again, if anyone experienced this particular type of insomnia, this sneaky early awakening kind, and especially if you beat it, either through chemicals or some other way, let me know .
Eddy