How does it feel to be depressed?

I've been depressed for over 30 years and would like to know if you've had similar experiences. This is my description:

Depression is when you're waiting not to do things.

Happiness is when you can't wait to do things.

I thought of this saying when I realised that when I was depressed,

I stopped myself from doing things - I put obstacles in my way.

when you're melancholy, it's like you're in your garage and the engine won't start.

when you're contented, you're revving the engine raring to go.

Yeah that sound like a good description

Putting obstacles in the way sounds a bit more like anxiety too

My worst symptom is my memory loss brain fog have you got any experience of this

Memory loss is a major part of my depression.  We have such a short time here, memory matters very much, I feel cheated and abused.  I was given ECT when I wasn't in a place to say I didn't want it....and now I have lost memories of this precious time I have on the earth.  We are only here once......I messed up my gift.

Pat

Do you think being depressed stops you wanting to do things. Because

To do things wen depressed you don't enjoy them. I try so hard

To make myself do things. But that is hard work. Mandy