I have been on various medications on and off for 20 years, including Seroxat, Mertazapine and currently on Prozac.
I have attend CBT, Psychiatrists, Psychologists, Counselling all several times. I did come from an abusive back ground.
I have been using Prozac now constantly at 40mg daily for about 7 years and I just wonder whether this is ever going to go. I have become worse in the last year and my GP (I have had the same GP for the past 15 years) as agreed that I can increase my dose to 60mg if I find that I am falling. I currently work part time, but am still so exhausted. I haven't had any motivation to get out of bed for years, even though I do drag myself out to go to work. I have increased my dose within the last week just so that I can go to work and am due to see my doctor in a couple of weeks.
I feel as though the medication wears off and I am slipping further down every day. I hide a lot of how I feel because I feel like such a burden to my family and husband (I am 46 years old).
Am I going to have this depression forever and having it just get progressively worse until I can't function anymore?
Hi Claudette. You said your doctor deals with your medication. Do you see a psychiatrist or support worker or anyone like that right now?
No, not talking to anyone right now as I feel as though none of it works long term. It feels like it puts a plaster on it for a while but it always comes back and usually worse than before. I only see my doctor if I am really struggling and can't go to work.
Hi , just read post and wonder if you are showing signs of menopausal symptoms as this can impact greatly on your general health/wellbeing ????
Yes, have been premenopausal since age 42.
Hi Claudette,
I'm so sorry you have had to battle this terrible illness for so long.
What i can say is, you are NOT a burden to your family, you didn't ask for this did you?
I too have been abused, and something i have found very helpful to move on, (though very difficult) is to confront my abuser, tell them exactly how they made me feel, i also told my family what was going on at the time as they were unaware.
After a while, i began to try and understand why the abuse happened (it wasn't your fault) as in, were they abused? do they have some phsyilogical problem? I then began to forgive the abuser, not for them, but for myself, because they aren't worth recking your life over.
You may not be able to confront your abuser, but its certainly worth trying to forgive them, so you can move on.
I know it may not be the whole cause of your depression, but it's worth trying to see if it helps.
Theres always hope Claudette, try and be positive and look at the good things in your life, no matter how small.
Take care & good luck x
Thank you for your reply and yes, have done all that I feel that I an do to heal.
I also exercise daily and watch what I eat as every little helps.
Thank you again for your views and advice.