Hoping so much for a good weekend and period ahead for you Lori, I like your descriptions about the low grade fever that it's like all your wires are crossed! Remember this won't last forever - and I do empathise Kay also with finding that balance between work and keeping yourself busy and not doing anything at all. I had to manage quite an extended phase return during work, after 15 months I was still only working 10 hours per week, but within the next year I got back to 3 or 4 full days and eventually back to full time. So if you are able to even have some kind of working hours / pattern that allows you that it would be great, but I do understand not all employers sadly are so understanding in this respect.
Craig
Kay,
You've been through a dreadfully draining and stressful time, and when trying to keep working and cope with normal daily life and stresses through that is not easy, so don't beat yourself up if finding it hard to tolerate or be as patient with people as you'd like - there are reasons and be kind and forgiving to yourself, we all just live and learn goodness I also see so many things develop in myself in terms of moaning to close family / friends and being so selfish that I just don't like either during this time I've been through too. You are a good person Kay that's very clear for me to see and your kind and caring heart comes across in all your messages and how you've helped me and others on the forum - so remember that next time you're feeling like beating yourself up!
Craig
Thank you very much Craig for your detailed msg. I do feel confident now that sometime next year I will be a great year for me.
If I can get the anxiety and depression to lift as well as the sleep to be continuously good, I know I will feel remarkably better. I am not sure if it is the sleep causing the anxiety and depression or vice versa. What a vicious cycle this is.
I wish you a lovely weekend too.
That was awesome that you were able to adjust your work hours.
For me it was more difficult as I didn't have proof of a diagnosis when I was at my worst so I had nothing to bring to my employer to justify taking time off or reducing hours.
The only option I felt I had quite honestly was to either keep working or hand in my resignation (which really wasn't an option when I had a mortgage to pay). I managed to work 45 hours a week throughout :-(
Thank you so much Craig for your kind words. You have me welling up here at work :-)
It's not very often I hear such nice things these days.
Aww thanks for the kind words too Kay! Oh of course not having a diagnosis and having to take time off work is not easy of course, it must have been so hard to go all that time not knowing what was going on. I am amazed you were able to work 45 hours per week, for a fit and well person that is exhausting but when going through glandular fever I can only imagine how hard it must have been!
I do hope you can get some good rest this week Kay put your feet up relax if you are able to!!!
Craig
It was really tough Craig. It's amazing how we can find strength deep within sometimes. Thank God things aren't as bad as they were.
trying to find strength today ...VERY BAD day for me .... oh Lord when will this get easier :(
It will get easier lori. We have to believe that. Positive mindset is so important.
Yes definitely Kay, I do hope and pray God gives us the strength to keep going and get through the tough times. He has been helping us this far and is not gonna leave us I believe that for sure. Hoping you managed to get a good sleep last night and can have a relaxing weekend.
Craig
Oh Lori so sorry to hear you had such a tough day. I just hope you are feeling a little more settled by the time you get this message. I'm still thinking about you Lori, just wish these awful lows and bad days would stay away and hoping so much for a better weekend - Lori you are going to get through this and sending you my thoughts and prayers today.
Craig
yes i know ..tried to make the best out if this bad situation but its getting old !
We will all be fine Craig. I am very optimistic.
thank you craig its been really tough and just wish this thing would leave me alone ...its getting me very down .
Thanks Kay and Lori, your words continue to help me I'm very grateful.
Craig
Hope you guys are feeling great this week.
I am having abit of a dodgy day today - abit anxious, tired, visual disturbances etc. Just having one of those days where laying down on a sofa or bed would be more comfortable than sitting upright in an office chair.
Hoping so much you are feeling a bit more settled by the time you get this message Kay - it must be very frightening when you have those kind of symptoms for sure - I know it can take confidence away when you try to do positive things like work and get on with things and then feel overwhelmed or unable to because of the symptoms and circumstances, it's a horrible experience Kay. Just remember it's only temporary when anything like this happens and I still think it's amazing how you've been able to keep working, and remember at any time you have the option to step back and take rest, your health is always more important than work, just hoping and praying God can allow you to feel well when working and fill you with new strength and confidence.
My week has been not too bad, had a bit of a wobble yesterday with the back pain bothering me and getting me down again, made me realise still got a way to go to get back to working fully and have the confidence to do the things I used to, but hoping and praying God gives me the mindset and determination and the tools to get there.
I know a lot of the guys here on the forum are into sports and athletics. Yesterday was watching an interview on the BBC Sport app with Michael Johnson, talking about his recovery from a stroke in the last few months. Even this super fit world record breaking man said he was frightened and had to apply the Olympic mindset just to approaching his recovery, and that at first it took him 15 minutes to walk 200m, the world record which he held at 19.32 seconds at one point.
Anyway just thought that was worth sharing worth a watch if you can find the interview / article!
Craig
Thanks Craig. My confidence has definitely had a big blow with this whole thing. I can't wait for the day when all this will be behind me. Let's hope it will be soon.
The sleep was not to bad lastnight but still feeling abit fatigued and drained today.
Definitely Kay I understand completely, my confidence took a real blow when going through this too and it took me a while to rebuild again - it takes time Kay but you will get there I truly believe you will. Also needing God to help rebuild my confidence in many areas too, just that I can function well and normally and be able to work again and believe with God's help can overcome pain and distress and any mountains that seem be in our way, with His help only of course.
Hoping you can manage to get through the day and to the weekend not feeling too drained or tired and then are able to rest more for a couple of days. Thinking of you!
Craig
Thanks very much Craig. I do hope so too.
I have also booked 10-14 December off work just to rest and do nothing.