Read too many bad things about antidepressants antipsychotics etc. shouldn't have but been feeling really bad about myself lately. And reading about these things don't help and I am stupid for doing so.
I guess I just need some reassurance on them so I'm not scared of taking them. I have suicide ideation. Never want to act on it but I always get disturbing thoughts of it. Would never want to though. And I never know if meds are making it worst or better or if it's even meds or just me.
I worry about medication too, but many people find it makes a huge positive difference to their lives. Googling is nver a good idea when you suffer from anxiety, I know this all too well! I also know that sometimes the compulsion to seek out information is difficult to resist. Have you spoken to your doctor about your concerns regarding your medication? They may be able to put your mind at rest or even offer you alternative treatment options. Personally, I prefer to try and manage my anxiety without medication. Have you tried things like therapy and meditation?
Going to therapy right now. Meds seem to be working ok but I still get worried. Never really tried medication but I should.
It's good that you're going to therapy, hopefully that will help a lot. Maybe give the meditation a try too, there are loads of guided meditations for anxiety on YouTube which might be a good place to start. Take care x