Hello everyone
I suffer from anxiety since last August,after my father death. I haven't used any medication because I can't handle them.During this time I have up and downs but I try to be strong.Every 2 weeks I go to my doctor for psychotherapy and after that I feel better but then after some days all my symptoms are back .Now I am afraid that is not anxiety anymore because now I can sleep but I am tired and I don't have desire to do sth,I think now I am depressed and too many things pass in my mind and I am so afraid that I can hurt myself ,that I am going not anymore to control my mind and just do sth bad.I study abroad and I have passed all my exams even though my anxiety and all but now I can't concentrate I can't learn I can't do anything.I live alone and that makes me feel bad.My sister lives in the same city but she lives with her boyfriend and doesn't have time for me ,she doesn't not understand and just say to me you don't have nothing is all in your mind.I feel alone,and I miss my friends,here I don't have many friends and my relationship with my sister has completely changed and that hurts me.She is a doctor she has to understand me but no one does ,only my mother and she is the only reason why I am alive and try to fight but this time I am so down and I don't really know what to do.
Can you call you psychiatrist and let him know you feel depressed? This stuff can get lonely by its nature sadly. Im sorry about your sister she lacks compassion, even if she is a doctor. They also tend to think more ,mechanically and less emotionally. I dont really have any answers except your doctor needs to know whats going in on so they can help you. Or at least tell your mom and ask her what she feels is best to do, im sorry you feel so down, hang in there and hooefully the doctor will figure out how to help you.
Dear Lisa,thanks so much for replying,I appreciate that.I have an Appointment on Tuesday with my doctor and I am going to tell how I feel and what is the best to do to get out of this .Unfortunately my mother doesn't live here ,she comes and visits me every 3 months and stays here 3 months or more and when she is here ,I feel better but when she is back home ,I feel depressed.thanks again and all the best
Dear xheni, I am so sorry to hear that you are depressed, please see your GP for some help....we all need help sometime....
Have you told your mother how you feel ? Is there any possibility that you could live with your mum...or even a little closer to where she is? Sometimes lovey, medication can make a huge difference...I have been on antidepressants for very, many years and they helped me a great deal...I do so hope that you begin to feel better soon lovey...warm hugs ,,dee xxx
Can't you and your mother communicate by cell phone ? Can your mother share your needs with your sister.? You need something to keep you busy
Have you tried making friends where you are now?? I'm sure it would help a lot to be able to go out. Even if you don't have people you're close to there, maybe go out to a few stores everyday just to be near people.. When is your mom coming back next? That can't be easy but the fact you're doing this on your own, with no meds and still passing your exams shows how strong you are. Make sure the doctor knows you're feelings of depression, that is nothing to mess around with.. Anyway you and your sister could set up a lunchdate for a certain day every week so you can have some sister bonding time and feel relaxed?
How are you feeling today?
HI Lisa,
Thanks for asking,it feels so good when people you don't know are so close in the most difficult moments. I feel a little bit better but still difficult to handel with all this thoughts.
Hello.I talk with people there at the University and hang aroud during the classes but not a real friendship ,we don't go out so much together afer the classes .My Mom is going to come in the end of November and that makes me feel depressed.I try to go out with my sister but our relationship is not the same ,I feel she doesn't care anymore about me and everytime I want to spent time with her ,her boyfriend is around .I don't like him and when he is around I am so anxious
Yes I communicate with my mother everyday via Skype but still feel alone. That is the problem that I need sth to keep me busy .I have to search for a job.
That's awful that she can't have a life outside of him it seems.. But November isn't that far away, were already in September! I'm sure it will fly by and then you have three months of full mom and daughter time. Start getting excited! Maybe start planning out what things you and your mom will do once she's here when you start getting depressed or anxious, I always start planning and organizing whenever the bad thoughts come and it does help some of the time.
At least Tuesday is just a few days away and the doctor will help you figure this out. It will be okay you just need some extra help to turn off the thoughts and stop believing them as facts. A few more days to go. Sometimes putting in headphones and some good music and taking a walk helps. But use positive music only..something that makes you feel alive and happy . Uplifting stuff. Music works itself into the brain nicely.