Hi everyone.
I have been struggling with depression and anxiety for nearly a year now. I'm 17, I was in a boarding school which I have left now as my mental state was seriously deteriorating. Now I am being homeschooled. I know it might seem like I am lonely because I am homeschooled but this isn't the case. I was extremely lonely in the boarding school as well, and even though there were so many people there it felt like none of them understood me or cared. I am going to a new school next year for my final year of school. But my loneliness goes way back to being a child and being a bit weird. You know the weird kid in every class who has no friends? that was me. Now I crave some kind of relationship be it romantic or just someone who is there. But no one seems to like me and of course being at home all the time I can't really meet new people. I know I am going to a new school next year but that seems like a long time away to me. I just want someone to love and love me back that's all I need. Thanks
Hi Ross. Do I remember you writing in a while back while you were in that boarding school and you were plain miserable? If not I apologize. You know Ross I don't think that any of us want to be lonely..alone and considered the "weird kid!" But believe it or not I know some gorgeous girls and handsome guys that go through akward periods with acne and feel like no one likes them either. You won't believe this but since I'm a girl I know some things. There are a lot of beautiful girls that men do not ask them out. Why? Well they assume that they 1
already have a date 2 or that no way a girl like that would go out with them. So the guy has no date with the girl and the girl tries to hide her loneliness by running with a group of girls acting like it doesn't bother her. And guess what? I'm talking about the 'in' kids here. So we all have hard times growing up. All of us have hard knocks. Now back to you. So do you have any interest like in the summer my son took golf lessons and tennis lessons. He went to camp. Now he wasn't a shy kid. But he wasn't good at all that stuff but he bit the dirt and gave it a try. Do you have any interest like horseback lessons. Music or swimming activities. Until we try we don't know if we like things. If you fall pick yourself up brush yourself off and go again. But if we sit inside we can't find the kind of people that will click with our personality. What ya think cowboy. Can you give it the good old country try. Diane
Hi ross - what do you love to do? Any sport? Art? Music? Inventing things? There must be something. Whatever it is, there will be some group for it, and nothing bonds people like sharing a common interest. As for being weird, so many "weirdos" have gone on to do amazing things in their life - sometimes things that change society. Your individuality is a wonderful thing, and you have your whole life ahead of you. Things will be different outside the peer-pressure environment, in the adult world. Meanwhile, have you decided what you want to do with your life? Whatever it is, do all the study, pour that energy into achieving your dream.