I am so sad inside. It feels as if I have a heavy load inside my chest. I once had to stay in a hospital for a few weeks. Since then my children thinks it funny to make jokes about me being crazy. I try to stay away from them, but sometimes I have no other choice.
So many things are happening in my life right now. And I am having a hard time dealing with it. A tree felled on my house, so I am misplaced. And now some how a pipe in my house worked itself loose and flooded the house, and the insurance company says it's my fault. I have not had permission to enter my house until the water flooded it. How is it my fault. I am screaming and crying for a couple of weeks now. It is too much.
It was so sad for me to read about your children. I can imagine how painful it is. I think you need to talk with them and explain how you feel. And they must help you. I have 16 years daughter and honestly she is my saver. And she helps me a lot. But we did some time when she didnt undestand what is happening with me but I tried to talk and explain to her. I"ll tell you about that if you reply
About your situation, I almost can feel your pain. For any person it'll be stressful situation but in our case it's a torture! Our home it's our safe place, our fotress where we can hide from outside world. So being misplaced from your own home must be terrible. I think you need to look for a help. First your chidren or neighbour. You can't deal with so much stuff on your own. I know it's easy to say sometimes then to do. For me just to make single phone call takes hours of preparation. And I am a foreinger and sometimes people talking too fast over a phone and I need to ask to repeat stuff over and over again... But i am still pushing myself to do it. I'd like to hear from you. Please ask your children to stop making jokes about you and explain them how you feel and that you need their help!
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