I've been feeling like everything including myself is unreal for about a half year now, it's only been getting worse. About a month ago I started to think about some really strange things. It all made sense to me though. I started to think that I'm being controlled by something/someone evil. And these thoughts are only getting stronger but it makes sense in a way. Ok so. Its really hard to explain. I believe that theres someone somewhere controlling us humans!!! theres good and bad. I believe im being controlled by something or someone bad. Like a demon. It's frustrating but facinating. I believe that if i fail life then i will be reborn and be controlled by someone more evil in my next life. But im failing life and it scares me. Im failing life cos i didnt finish high school/dont have a job/dont have any friends ect. Just the "basic" things in life. I BELIEVE THAT IF u have good friends, a job that does good to the world ect. THEN U WILL GO TO A GOOD PLACE WHEN U DIE INSTEAD OF BEING REBORN AND BEING CONTROLLED BY SOMETHING EVIL!!!! but im here. Failing. Im so scared. Let me explain. I believe im being controlled because everything i do feels like its not me doing it, everything i say feels like its not me saying it. I laugh, i smile, feels fake. Not me!!!! I've become aware of this. I think it makes them angry. That theyre making it worse cos theyre angry cos i figured it out. when im with my family i cant recognize them. They seem like robots to me. I think i see them as robots now cos now i know theyre being controlled as well, just like me! im very scared. Theres also a shadow ive been seeing. I cant look straight at it... if i look straight at it, it goes away. The shadow thing doesnt happen often. it started after i figured out im being controlled. happened 3 times. Its getting more clear everytime. Its been a week since i saw it last time. I believe this shadow is the evil thing controlling me. Maybe its here to tell me something. I dont know what. Its only there for a few seconds / minutes at a time, doesnt say anything. I can only guess. Anyway. i hope we can all destroy these evil things controlling us together!!! im scared. I dont wanna be reborn and be controlled by something more evil. I believe life is a test. Test to if youre ready to join the "real world/good side". I think ive failed many times. I wanna do good for once. A part of me knows the way im thinking isnt right. That something wrong. But these thoughts are getting so stronger everyday.
What type of thoughts? I have strong thoughts to I hear a demon in my head saying scary stuff, it scares me the doctor put me on medicine.
just the thought/believe that everyone including myself is being controlled by something/someone evil/good. I believe im being controlled by something/someone evil. I dont know where they are.. i think theyre on a planet somewhere. Theres a good side and bad side. On the good side there go there humans here on Earth that did something good for the world/had a good job/good life in general and they get to live on the good side(like heaven?) when they die. and the humans here on Earth that didnt have a job/bad life in general/no friends get reborn and get controlled by someone more evil=worse life=harder to go to the good heaven place=evil circle....!!!! its so scary. These thoughts. Cos i wanna go to the good place... i feel so stuck on earth. Its just an evil circle, it will never end cos im doing terrible in life. Im depressed, ocd, anxiety, no motivation. Its so hard. I dont undersand. This evil thing controlling me... why is he giving me depression,ocd and anxiety and expect me to do well in life??? Thats the only thing i dont understand. Everything else makes sense.
Whats ur thoughts?