I start my new job on my own tomorrow and I'm terrified ...I've had a hand over for the last few days but I'm on my own. After my bout of depression. I've changed a little bit I'm not sure if it's for the best. When I was really anxious I used to be a power horse in the work environment now I'm more relaxed and kinda just get on with things. But I'm scared incase I've lost my energiser so to speak? I'm just feeling awful today I'm 27 and still live at home and I told someone yesterday about it and I felt they thought I was pathetic I just feel a whole wave of why am I even here today and what have I got to give feel like a loser
Don't feel pathetic. There are many people in your situation and worse. Speaking from my experience, after a mental breakdown I was terrified doing anything particularly a job. But you will adapt and get used to it. Don't forget that this job is something that is part of your recovery. It will give you new skills for life. If it doesn't work out you move on to a new one. If it does work then great!..please remember you are not a loser. By choosing to get up in the morning you win.
Believe me
Lawrence
cant agree with the person above anymore. you win once you go to work. end of.
When anyone starts a new job, there is anxiety involved, companies and bosses don,t expect someone new, to come in and hit the floor running, learn the job and the routine of the place 3 or 4 weeks from now you will be flying.
By the way 27 is by no means too old to be living at home, if there is such a thing, the rules are different now, as owning a home or renting is so exspensive. A friend of mine has 5 kids, all living at home, the youngest is 27 too, as it happens. Enjoy it while it lasts, there's plenty of folks out there would love to move back home,
I was one of them
So how was it?
Hope your first day back went okay. I too agree with others that work can help. I personally always feel more in control when I have the focus of work to force me into action if you know what I mean. I literally don't get a chance to stop and gather my thoughts whereas I can become a lot more anxious and depressed when I don't work and am just on my own without a need to do anything of any importance.
My first day went fine, but my second day encountered some problems and my anxiety did come back ...I'm trying to let it go and move on but another part of me is self beating thinking I'm going to get fired 
But you coped? Even with the problems..you are doing well. Just stick it out and get in touch if you have any issues and need pepping up!
Lawrence