Guys.. i like, cant anymore.. i have health and social anxiety. I basically only sit at home because it is the only safe place for me. I go out, meet people and my heart starts RACING, like 150bpm, i get serious chest and back stabbing.. hands shaking.. sweating.. what the f.. and now im laying in bed, waking up in 4 hours.. just completely restless, i have a serious headache, i feel like one side of my face is heavier.. i get these electric shocks in my neck/throat, palpitations.. i cant stop it.. no rational thinking helps.. my family HATES me since im whining all the time and I wake them up at night to tell them im dying and im convincing my dad to drive 20km to emergency room - which he did many times!! He is like soon to be 70 and im the whiner here but I cant help myself, im so depressed and suicidal, i was inspecting how many antidepressang pills would kill me.. but i dont want to die.. i want to live but not like this, what the heck.. im going to college in a week and im so nervous i feel like im going to get a heart attack any time. Im 19 and completely mentally gone. I dont have money for therapy since tuition is really expensive.. im so sorry for everyone around me..
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Ah Emma please talk to someone, your family so do not hate you, you might think that at the minute, I’ve often thought that way, but when I talked about it, it’s just they didn’t understand what’s going on with you & sure how can they, if you don’t tell them. It will take a load of anxiety off you by sharing it & they will help you get help as I found it’s easier to talk to a stranger than family. Sending you the BIGGEST HUG x
Hey Emma I was onve like yoy I couldn't do anything without having a panic attack trust me I know I couldnt take it either didnt k ow what to do I had viaited my local er alot to the point they knew my name but trust me it does get easier over time I have done it all ativan smoked weed drank sure it helped but in the long run it didnt it masked what I was trying to avoid my story my dad died in my arms at home tragically and after that I was done panic anxiety ect but you have to remember you are not alone this can not kill you . its our brains that need to be retrained into thinking different and believe me it takes a long time to do so I suffer from agoraphobia which sucks but each day I do more yes I have set backs but thats it its only set backs ..but if you need people we are here
Emma390, I have dealt with anxiety for a long time. I can relate. I have a daughter that went off to college and started having bad anxiety. There is usually a doctor and counselor at the college that can help you, and it is paid for in your tuition. My daughter has used both many times. Maybe you could check into that. Also, read a recommended book on anxiety to help you understand it better, That helps, too. Not only does my daughter have anxiety, I do, too. You can get better. Good Luck!
Emma, you are SO loved I can guarantee that! Talking to your family about what you are dealing with is KEY. They need to understand. I have tried breathing techniques that really help along with Zoloft. Are you taking medicine? I think you should consider that to get you through this. This WILL pass - anxiety is fixable, it just takes time and effort daily. I would also try reading books on it and praying. That all helps. Much love to you xoxo