So right now I'm in my teens and I've always had a strong mind but now I feel so vulnerable. I read some scary stories and they started to actually affect me. This week I read something about cannibalism and I started to go deeper in research with that I scared myself thinking what if I were to be evil and started eating people, And after thinking about that I started to cry because I would NEVER eat a person but the thought of it scared me. And now I just have horrible images and thoughts that cloud my mind. And I just want it to go away. So I can live on with my life...
Keep everything you read, watch or do positive. Yes you re in a vulnerable and very sensitive tsate of mind. When i first started in all this i couldnt even watch a stupid sitcom and it was a minor probpem they were discussing. You assimilate and absorb whats round you right now. Best thing is to watch your childhood shows as it will remind your memory and brain of happier times.
Intrusive Thoughts is what this is known as. I have experienced these to the point of physical pain and constant mental torment, but there are ways to get over it.
First and foremost, you must realize that your thoughts are not a reflection of who you are. The majority of the thoughts we have come from outside stimulus - Something we saw on TV, read, overheard walking down the street, and such. A thought only becomes distressing when we attach meaning to it. In fact, normal people have "crazy" thoughts every day, they just ignore them or assign no meaning to them. When you are anxious, you may be unable to ignore a thought in the moment and this can lead to a vicious cycle.
Second, you need to understand that the fact that you are bothered by these thoughts indicates that they are not an accurate reflection of who you are. Somebody who was an evil cannibal would not be troubled by these thoughts.
This can present itself as something known as Pure O obsessive cumpulsive disorder (Pure O OCD). If you find yourself spending too much time thinking about these thoughts, researching these thoughts and trying to find ways to reassure yourself that you won't act out these thoughts - theres a good chance you fall under this category.
The best way to get over obsessional thinking is to just allow the thoughts to happen. Realize that they are just thoughts, just clouds passing through your mental sky. You have no more control over the thoughts your brain creates as you do over the clouds in the sky. It's when we focus on a thought and obsess over it, that it becomes troubling. Just let the thought be there, assign no meaning to it, eventually it will pass.
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