I don't believe I'm suffering from depression

Says me who is currently attending counselling sessions, precribed a depression recovery and Mirtazapine.  I am still eyeing those drugs dubiuosly and haven't started them yet.  

How does one differentiate that they are suffering from depression, or insomnia or just unfortunate and difficult circumstances which makes me sad, miserable and angry?  

What i am suffering from are panic/anxiety attacks which occurs at night, middle of the night, nearly every night for the past four/five months, ever since I left my marriage which was an abusive relationship.  Recently, I'm starting to space out during the day.  Occurrences are increasing each day.  I forget what I'm suppose to be doing, where I'm going.  I forget how to start the car for several seconds at the traffic lights.  

As as for mood, it's negative for good reason because of the divorce process and husband's continued nastiness.  

I stiil ill refuse to believe it's depression.

 

Hi Amelia. If you are spacing is it safe to drive? When you say panic attacks do you mean you shake, sweat and feel sick or you worry? Which came first the divorce or the problem? Anxiety is very different to depression as you say. Hope you feel better now.

I am going through a difficult time but I function perfectly during the day.  Afterall, I have two young children to care for.  If anything. I am more active and do more with my children which I know is a form of escapism.  I want to keep myself constantly occupied.  At night, I would wake up, or jump up from my sleep and the attack begins.  Palpitations, difficulty in breathing, constriction in my throat, chest pains, dizziness and would pace around the room in circles till it goes away.  

Have you ever been in an abusive relationship jacqueline01135? It can leave a lasting affect on your life forever, you don't what she went through, I think what she's gone through is a problem, clearly, as she is having panic attacks. The attacks happen when there is a build up of negative and nervous emotions over a long period of time.

Amelia, you might be depressed too and the reason being is obvious, you've been in the abusive relationship for so long, the negativity in that causes one to be depressed. Don't be stubborn if you need help - get it! 

People who have emotional or mental health issues find it much harder to deal with abusive relationships, break ups etc than others, they are far more likely to get into abusive relationships too. It is not black and white and simple.

Thank you to Carmel, Maxi and Vickycam's replies to this thread.  I was starting to doubt the forum and thought trolls and adolescents congregate here but I do understand that some are more unwell than others.

My question is that people often get confused between depression, stress and anxiety .  And I have been wrongly diagnose to have depression which I stubbornly (as someone has pointed out and they are probably right) refuse to have.  Stress and  anxiety is most likely given the circumstances but are they treated in the same way, especially with medication?

 

There are different forms of stress and anxiety Amelia. Some say they are stressed when actually worried about something, others when they shake or feel sick and get physical symptoms. Sometimes they can be controlled by beta blockers but if you go down the road of tranquillsers your body gets used to them and you have to keep taking larger doses until eventually even a large dose doe not work yet you are addicted to it and getting lots of side effects. There are different types of depression too and half of those who say they are depressed are not, they are just fed up or having a bad day. W