I'm 16, nearly 17 and have severe depression, angisioty, and anger. I come from a family of we do it because we love you. If you loved me why have you put me down for so many years, destroy my self image and my self confidence. Why do I not care about either of you anymore. Why do you threaten me taking away my abilties to talk to people online. Why do you constantly complain about mr and when I ask you if I'm a disappointment you always say no then changr the question. Why do I just want to beat the living s**t out of my bully dad. What did I do to start making him yell at me so many years ago when I was a kid. Why do they ask me all these questions that make me feel bad about myself. I don't know anymore. I have no one in my life that cares for me. And I don't care for them. I have nothing in my life, I am the blatant hated child overshadowed by my perfect sister who is perfect in every way possible. I'm an incredibly smart person, I've always been told by teachers, or other adults. I don't know what to do anymore, all I want as of now is to go to college and live my own life away from the anchor that is my family holding me down. Recently, (10 minutes ago) I was threatened to not get any assistance in college, won't be welcomed home, will not get my form of help with buying a car. (Yes I'm almost a senior in high school and have to ride with my sisters new car and I can't even ask them to help me pay for it) I have disconnected myself from this cancer eating away at my health. I just want to get it removed but I can't. I don't talk to people the way I used to. I am anti social and have no need of changing that. I don't care for other people knowing what they have gone through is nothing compared to the mental abuse I've endured my entire life. I just need some place to say this and maybe have a glimmer of hope that someone will care. Thanks for reading if you did. I typed this from my phone so some words may noy be spelled correctly and nor do I really care.
It always makes me feel sad when I read emails from teenagers. They have a difficult and confusing time of it anyway, but then to throw in depression, anxiety etc. You don’t say if you are seeing a doctor or therapist, is that something you feel able to do. Is there any support for you either with anyone such as close member of family, somebody who could support you to see a professional?? I’m sorry I don’t know what the health care system is in the states .(I assumed you were from there when you talk of high school) Over here we have GPS who can refer us to councillors etc.
Im sorry you feel your family are being particularly unhelpful, but I do understand well that teens and their parents do have it tough. Is there any support for you in school? You say you are anti-social, do you have friends?. I’m sorry if this email is unhelpful, I just wanted to say, you do need to talk to someone. Ands there are people on here that have lots of advice. And, I care. Julia.
I'm 17 years old and I can identify with what you are going through. Most of my friends are going to college in the Fall... they are also working and can only afford a state school. They have really used cars that they bought for themselves.... no help from parents.... most have financial troubles or want their teen to pay for everything. I don't have a car yet... take the bus... and I won't have one at the university. For me,,,, I need to save and save. My parents can't really help me...I would say to apply to state schools that are very cheap. You can even live there if you have a job to pay for the dormitory. My dad was very degrading growing up and it does chip away at your self-esteem... after a while you start to beleive that you really are a useless waste or a selfish brat. Try to distance yourself from them and see if you can take the bus to school. Try to be as independent of your family as possible. You need to build up your self-esteem ... I exercise (run around the block a few times) when I have had it... my home can be quite crazy at times... everybody talking at once.... such a headache and the anxiety is overwhelming. You only have 1 more year of highschool and then you are off to college away from your family. Just think good thoughts and plan for the future. Also, parents are always keeping an eye on what we are looking at on the internet or iphone... and I do believe that it is to protect us. We won't understand anything that are parents are doing or have done until we become parents. Pray for patience and stay balanced/stable...