I don't know what to do with my life

Mental health
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Hi. I feel so embarassed writing this but I hope you don't judge me.

I think all my life I've been kind of depressed, sometimes being bullied as a kid, or feeling lonely. Then I met my husband and that feeling went away.

But lately I feel so down, with no reason to be alive, because anyway we're gonna die at some point. Then why is it worth living? Just for temporary feelings? That's not worth the bad times. I hate my job, I am scared to change it, I feel so down when I change my job and people seem to not like me. I do care about people's opinion about me, and I get hurt quite often. I really try to be a nice person, but people are mean. I can't find any hobbies, I can't talk to anyone about this, I keep everything inside my head and it feels it's gonna explode. I don't want to go to the doctor, because when I am surrounded by people I don't act like I'm unhappy, but when the night comes, I get sad, unable to think in a positive way.. I just don't know what to do. I'm stuck in a life I didn't ask for.

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Hi Marta. So sorry that you are so down. I am concerned that you don't want to go to the doctor because there is help out there for you and you so deserve it. There is hope for you to feel much better with therapy and antidepressants. I have been helped greatly by both. Will you reconsider? Diane 

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Dear Marta,

I’m so sorry that you are having these feelings, but you are not alone. Please, please see a doctor, counselor or a therapist. You would not believe how different you will feel afterwards. Explain to the doctor exactly what is going on he or she will understand. I had to go I was really bad, I still am. But I go to the doctor monthly, take my meds and use the tools from the doctor. By tools I mean things that will help me get through the depression and sadness. Please go you will see you won’t even have to tell anyone until you are ready to and in the meantime come back to this site when you need to talk or vent

Much love