I've been on antidepressants since September of this year, I have a boyfriend now, but everything feels wrong. I've lost hope for the future, I've tried therapy, but it doesn't work. I want to give up, I want to live , I'm tired of living for everyone as comic relief rather than a real person. Everyone knows I hurt, I tried to voice my pain but instead of some kind of care, I get scolded and basically told to get lost and bother someone else. I'm so tired. Please, I need a reason to keep going. My boyfriend hasn't been talking to me, I lost a close friend, and my pills are no longer working. I'm losing my mind, I don't want to do this anymore. Everyday hurts. I'm lost in a maze in the pitch black, my fears looming over me in dark clouds, threatening to pour the weight of the truth onto me. Please, help me change my mind. I can't take this anymore.
Hi Katejessi. I hear your pain in your mail. When you write back will you tell me your age?
I am sorry that you feel like you are being minimized by people when you try to talk to people in your life that is painful. Can you talk to a school counselor by chance?
Will you get back to me about your age? Diane
I'm 17, will be 18 in February. I've tried counselling but it doesn't work anymore.
Katejessi I think that you might find grief counseling to be a little different. All my young life I wanted therapy but for one reason or another could not get it. Finally I found the right counselor for me and I stuck with her I was determined no matter how painful it was I would not run away. My therapy was painful but oh so rewarding. All my life I had been swatting at shadowing. Meaning I was miserable but did not know why in that therapy I got down to the issues underneath and it set me free. You are very young and do not have to live a life of hell. Let me know what you think. Diane
Hi Katejessi. I'm real sorry you're going through so much inner struggle, it's so difficult, yes. I have my struggles too, but it was worse in the past. Please reach out to the previous poster who responded to you, Adldiane, she's obviously a wise lady who speaks from her experience which is a good thing. Hang in there and don't give up hope Katejessi. Weather the storms time and again until you get through it - and you will get through it, it's just a matter of time. Keep fighting and keep battling. You'll make it.