I am so depressed and anxious. The past 2 days have been hell. Ive cried most of the day. Cut myself. And been so terrified of what i will do. I have a dr appointment on Monday. Ive been depressed for 2 years but only had a few bad episodes. Im on venaflaxine 3 a day. But they just dont work anymore. Ive done counselling and im doing cbt at the moment but nothing is helping. Im hurting my mum by being like this because she worries about me and she doesnt need it. If i kill myself she wont cope but I cant cope staying here. I keep thinking i could throw myself down the stairs or fake a car accident but that might not kill me and ill just end up injured and back to this state im in. I pray every day i get cancer and die
Im so desperate for help but ive tried everything. I even asked if i could be admitted to a mental home or even to hospital for a few days but my mum said the hospital wouldnt do that. Im not strong enough to keep fighting.
Please I need some help
When you say your taking 3 a day venlafaxine do you no what mg it is per tablet? There is light at the end of tunnel. At this time please try to stay safe i was in a bad way on venlafaxine until i was put on the right mg per day. There are new meds out there that can help for really bad depression. You need to see a gp or psychiatrist to help you. Ive been there your not alone.
Ask for Psychotherapy, cbt isnt therapy, it's typically not very good
When you see your doctor, tell him how you feel, especially the suicidal thoughts. If you think going in the hospital, it will be the doctor that helps. Depending on your age could involve you mon but if you mention suicide the doctor will act accordingly. The time I spent in the hospital was helpful. Your attitude about being there and really wanting help will make a big difference in how things go. Being with others that understand what you are experiencing and talking, learning about this can be very helpful.you are asking for help now and that shows you want to feel better and not harm yourself. Try to think on healing your concerns and not giving up. Things will turn around and you will be glad you got help and are changing your feelings to help yourself and harming yourself is never the answer. I tried that route and Im thankful it didn't work. Privacy is taken very seriously and you don't have to let others know your reasons for being in the hospital. Some had rather be private and thats probably best until you have time to decide but right now the help is your main concern. I wish you all the best and hope you have a beauitful future. You can always talk on this site and we are glad if you get help here and post as much as you need to. God bless
Try to find a psychiatrist and get on the right medication! The med you are on now could be giving you more depression and anxiety if it is not helping! Have you been on this med for many weeks, months etc? Please know that you will be better after seeking help from a psychiatrist, they know how to treat your condition!
Hi Chloe, yes you need a new therapist. it isnt working for you. you need to have your mom come in and get you new doctors
There is a way out! I did a Mythic Voyage at TierraMticia, it's in Peru and uses methods not yet explored by conventional psychology/psychotherapy but they get life transformation results in 10 days. In my group there were everything from long-term and suicidal depressives, a guy with splt personality disorder and somebody with psychosematic epilepsy that were all cured. It's hard work you will have to face up to some pretty confronting psychological and emotional blocks but if you dont quit they guarantee a path to a life more amazing than you can possibly imagine - the proof is in the pudding, myself and everybody in my group is doing amazing over a year on.
You can't "cure" these issues, not without rewiring someone's DNA and changing their entire life experience. Your not suggesting this is what happened I presume?
Thank you for your comment. I am on 75mg x3 a day. I was on 2 but been on 3 for about 4 days. Ive had other meds before and they work for a bit and stop.
I know i need to be more social and active but i cant do it. Im sick of fighting for a normal life. Im not strong enough anymore.
Thank you. Im 25, i really need somewhere i can be kept safe. I know i want to die but i also dont. Maybe that means i dont really want to. Who knows.
2 years ago i was ok, yes i had my down moments as we all do but now i just have no trust that theres help with anything. Depression, illnesses.. anything. I just want my old self back
Ive been on them for months. I was on fluoxetine before for about 12 months maybe longer. And ive been on these for about 8 months.
Im just so worried nothing will work. I cant take sertraline as i was put into hospital when i had these with allergic reaction.
Im just fed up. Im hurting my mum being like this and i cant do that for much longer. Shes ill herself with lupus and other conditions so she doesnt need me like this.
Chloe97631 you may feel like your not strong enough at the minute but once they get your medication at the right dose you start to feel better. Now i was in a bad way 9 months ago i was completely suicidal i was on 2 × 75mg of venlafaxine it wasnt doing anything for me. My psychiatrist put my medication up to 4 × 75 mg of venlafaxine plus a mood stabiliser. Now i dont know how you feel about mood stabilisers but after a little while i started to feel less anxious. Sorry to ask but how do you sleep do you go into a good sleep? Its just i might be able to offer advise on this matter. I suffer chronic insomnia. Ive tryed sleeping medications they dont really help me however i was put on melatonin once for the first time in years my mood lifted i could not believe it. Long story but they took me off melatonin. But now im on agomelatine which works on the melatonin receptors in the brain. Let me say for me its like being back on melatonin. I hope some of what i said may help i no its no magic cure advise but take ot from me with the correct help from your psychiatrist they must help you.
I no how you feel chloe i was very bad just before my mum sadly passed away. But it not your thought. They will find you the right medications. There is new medications out there. Im sorry to hear about your mum. Have you got no other support?