Okay, I dont know what I should do now.
Had such a bad few days that I decided (myself) to take citalopram again. Day 2 and I am feeling a bit better....but maybe I am addicted to it, or maybe its just given me a false sense of security...I dont know what to do. Should I ring my GP and ask...or just leave it? I am fed up knocking his door down when I am physically fine.
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Hi Katy,
If your mother mentioned that she had decided to take a course of prescription tablets without medical advice, would you be concerned? Please ring your GP, tell him or her honestly what you have taken, and don't ever confuse depression with a physical condition. It is not. It is a result of a chemical imbalance, that chemical being the hormone Seratonin.
Now you know what you should do. Call the doctor, either make an appointment or discuss with him over the phone the fact that you are taking Citalopram, and he will no doubt tell you what I will tell you. And that is, you cannot help yourself to dangerous drugs like Citalopram without medical guidance. Citalopram helped me get back on my feet, but it can hurt you too. Do this for you Katy. Do it for your two loving daughters. Do it for your Mum, and your Dad. But first, do it for you.
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Katy, I agree with Breezman 100%.
No one should be taking Anti Depressant drugs without proper medical involvement and supervision.
Please do contact your doctor and discuss things with him. If Citalopram is helping, then tell him and hopefully you can agree an appropriate dose and how you will monitor your progress. At the moment, he maybe thinks that you're still taking Mirtazapine if you've not told him that you stopped.
I understand why you wanted to come off Mirtazapine - I have had the nightmares too - but for the sake of yourself, your daughters and everyone that cares about you, please, I beg you, don't chop and change between these drugs. :blue:
Let us know how you're doing.
Take care.
X
Hi
One things for certain don't just take the tablets on an adhoc basis as that will really screw your system up, if GP says take then follow that advice.
Nothing more to be said, Breezman, Stiltman and Nutter have said it all.
The question now Katy, is after asking for advice on here, are you going to take it or ignore it? :shock:
Love ' n' hugs
Melbi xxx
Well, hey, what a bunch!!! Thanksm you are all very correct, but have outsatnding reasons , not to bother anyone. Sorry to be such a failure.
Hi Katy,
I'm sorry you took umbrage at the well-meaning comments made. You are not a failure until you give up. Perhaps you should give up. Give up all the things you do that don't work, and seek professional guidance. It is not a bother, unless it bothers you. And if you continue to do what you've been doing, you will continue to get less than you deserve.
I hope you continue to post your thoughts and feelings Katy.
[quote:b95417a4f9=\"Tiny Tears\"]Well, hey, what a bunch!!! Thanksm you are all very correct, but have outsatnding reasons , not to bother anyone. Sorry to be such a failure.
You are never failure, medication might fail, others might fail you - but you are not a failure...
One..x
Katy, if my earlier comment has upset you, I apologise sincerely. That was certainly not my intention. I don't honestly know though what else I (or anyone else on here) could have said in response to your question.
I am not a doctor so it would be totally irresponsible of me to say \"Hey, what the heck Katy, just pop whatever pills feel good\".
Please understand that my earlier post was made with the best of intentions as, I'm sure were those of Melbi, Breezeman & One Nutter .
I don't think you're a failure. I would never judge someone like that and I don't believe you should judge yourself as such. I've said before on here that you have qualities and strengths that mean you have so much to offer. Just in terms of these drugs, what they do and whether or not you should take them, there's no substitute for proper medical support and advice.
Please take care.
X
Look folks, I know we are all on the touchy side, but Breezman you did not upset me, I was upset /am upset allready. I am just failing at life, Being eaten for letting myself being a victim.
I had my youngest at the doctor today. Adifferent doctor and I did ask her. She was great. Listened and felt a little more secure for about 5 minutes. Like I have said before, I dont really like annoying them with all of this, as its not like I am physically dying, and normally , this is why I would see a doctor. But well, lately again, I ve not exactly been on top of the world, and really I should not be this way. Especialy as I have 2 beatiful young children that I am blessed with, and a job (Huh...do not know for how much longer..after todays events) Just hope I can manage to not think negatively about things. Sometimes it just crashes down on me. Cried in changing rooms today after trying to stay positive about things. the more I try to be positive, the more I feel the doom and the insecurity setting in ,,,and I think,....oh god, trhis is what sgoing to happen......Ive done this all my life and of course ineveitably it doeshappen. It does not matter how hard I try to be positivem underneath I have to know of the worst scenario, so that I can cope with it later :x
When Upset, I could feel the grief shrivelling my body up and got a really bad burning hot pain down my left side. So not so good ...STILL. Yawn
:D Had a good day at work today....getting help with the things that I am finding difficult and the staff are really helping me to gain a little confidence. been a very up and down week...all over the place with my emotions :lol:
And I have been very naughty on this site too, and apologies to you all.
Just glad the sun is shinning, Ta ta , (for now ) Chin up and keep smiling :D :shock:
Went out on my bike...hurt my knees. :cry: The, oh nmy god.....you should read this letter I hvae got from my boss...I fdind it really upsetting. Why does everything have to be such an obstacle??????Sorry hurdle? (Mountains high).
Well, after analysing the contents of that letter and looking at the |Final | discussion...I think iam stuffed :oops: :oops: I also think this is as nobody can beat my customer service skills.
The whole thing is a farse!!!!
I donthtink its fair to say hay lookm there you go, youve passed and then take the decision away a week later, and say nope, sorry , youve actually failed. What on earth caused the U - turn? What has she found out ?? What is going on? I have asked on previous occasions if they were happy with my work and the response was yes, but just make sure you get here on time.
Weel this gets my hackles up. Ive never been late, I am not the type of person to be late. I hate waiting on people who are late, so why would I be late? Its all part of my anxious make up. The only thing I am ever late for is my choildrens school run, and that susually because Becca had fosrgottemnn somethieng, or had an episode (as children do). I have stood out th=at shop umpteen times waiting on management to open the doors, Grrrrrr!!! See now I am boiling it all up again amd it will eventually explode out/ I am a bomb waiting to go.
They have failed to recognise that this is her mistake for passing me in the firast place. Secondly, they have failed to realise how much good I am there, As most clients are mothers with children, Sorry, but I think I have firsthand experience at this, and as the only mother working there this should get recognised. Especially when I know how self conscious a person feels after having a chilLD. The other thing to add here, and to be noted is that, I am also good with children so this gives the customer plenty of time to try on clothing while I am happy playing with their children giving themn a break. I also would like to add , I am not one of these pain in the nech assistants that just stand and stare and say \"Awwe how cute\" No I acyively help
Why does everything seem so impossible? Why cant I do a simple job? Grrrr!!!!! Then I comwe home to this bomb of a house, and grrr!!! Hes buggered of to the pub while I have fed his dad. I am soo angry and upset, at myself and generally at life. Bring back the sunshine someone.
Mind you , on there side is my lack of confidence, and when I am not busy enough, my lack of initiative...I suppose those things go hand in hand. Ill k=just have to show them whats for. :oops: 8)
:shock: I am soo toiling. Sometimes, I think I am okay, Iam okay...I carry on doing things. Its not as though I stop,, I can function......The biggest thing at the moment is my snaps, and its horrible . i cant contorl it...I have no patience left. This makes me go for long long walks, i want to be left alone. i have no idea why? I cant talk , or trust people like I used to...
I know recently I have been completely of the rails.
I cant eat, I cant sleep...Ive been for help..it seems to be making me worse.
I also get the odd crazy thoughts about what I would actually like to do to myself....I shant report them though.
Its not like I have anything really bad happening , is it? No one close to me is dying , at the moment? nothing reallly bad is happeneing......so why am I so tearful, and so anxious and then so destraught? (my work situation has not helped, but i created that problem).
Am I just going mad????????????????
Hi Katy
I can imagine the shock and pain receiving that letter - but I have to ask you to ak yourself one thing (you do not have tp post it here But ask yourself this.....
Are you putingt 100% into his job? I have seen you online late at night and quite often wondered how the hell you manage to be up in the mornings, have your girls ready for school then go to work.
Perhaps a few good early night will make you more capable to cope with your work.
I mean let's face it, if I went ito work in such a state as you have describe yourself they would ahve locked me up and thrown the key away.
Work cannot afford nor have the time to 'nurse' a sick person.
I oftern wonder when reading your posts that if you can susseccessfully hold down a job, see to two young girls and keep house - then surely you can start to see for yourelf just how capable you really are and now you are usig this forum as your own personal councillor.
Unfortunately none of us are trained to be your councillor and if if we were, no type profressional councillor would attempt to a council anyone online. They need to meet you face to face, ask for records from your GP etc.
nfortumately it's all down to you Katy! Yes it does help post here but your posts are of the same content day after day - when are you going to STOP sing this place as your personal GP practice and start helping yourself by discussing what you discuss here with your GP.
I do appreciate depression can take months to get better and im prove but Katy you are holding yourself back out of sheer stubbornness and it is becming not just tedious but worrying and frstrating for all those that have to read your post.
Sadly, I have come to the conclusion that PUK has nothing more to offer you :oops:
Many people pass through here and many have offered you support and advice - you have always had the choice to take it ot leave it.
I think now Katy, as you mentioned, maybe it is time to stop posting here - stop reading here and perhaps just try he :oops: lping yourself to that long road of recovery.
I for one have spent months trying to help you; yes here we are still the Katy who refuses to tell her doctor all so in effect you have chosen to live with this illness.
I hav read many other posters trying to help yop - I'm sorry Katy but imo you are going to jave to look elsewhere for thje help your need (offline)
I am still here for you as are all your friends here but what you do not realise is your constant self wallowing in pity post can also grind other down too.
So do we get Katy back or are we stuck we with you in a deep black hole none of us are strong or professionslly trained enough to get you out of it?
As always Katy, it HAS to be YOUR call.
get that bloomin' strenght back and sense of humour and lets see the real Katy from now on! :chick:
love 'n' hugs
Melbi
Dont know what to do.
Reallly dizzy, having thoughts of self destuction....they just pop in there...and then later when I find myself laughing, I cant handle it and laugh so hard I nearly pee myself, and then cant believe what a state i have been in.. I am too scared to go back to the doctors. I cant bring me to do it...maybe that means I am not that bad, maybe that menas I am actually getting better. Perhaps, I am When busy, I seem to be doing okay, but I am fed up with this dizziness, and sleeping now soo much that I slept in for work this morning. I know, here I go again. Would you go back with such a complaint, Is this normal?
Oh I dont know, my partner is trying to get a new job, and I cant handle the stress of it, he seems so hyper. I was working last night and ran home. walked fast , in the rain,I even left early as I was scared to do the walk home, (I had no money for the bus)...Got home and he is rabbiting on and on about things that just dont seem to matter, non specific unimportant things, and avoids the real issues, He does this all the time, And yes I do feel un everything. But hety folks, my boss says I dont need a brain transplant, that I am working well, and thank you for all my hard efforts. Efforts?????? that sounds like I dont quite make the grade...efforts!!! Ooooooh I hate that Katy has made a good effort......oh :lol: :lol: :lol: .
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Well I went to my weekly physio today and oh boy do I give up!
He measured the movement - no change
Pain - no change!
He asked me again what doctor said so told him a displaced radial head fracture followed 2 weeks later with a fracture showing up in the ulna.
He looked at his records and all he had down was a radial head fracture - not displaced, so off he went to look at my x-rays and came back to explain the bone is lodged between the joint. :roll:
He asked when I was next at fracture clinic, wired me up to a tens machine, sent me home and said he will see me next week but then after that there is no point until I have been to fracture clinic again as he reckons the movement and pain won't improve while the bone is lodged between the joint.
He suggested I go and see my gp and try some different painkillers and anti inflammatory tablets.
sod all to do with citalopram lol but that's the latest news on my fractured elbow. :roll:
Melbi x
Melbi, that sounds too sore for words.
My daughter got her plaster offyesterday. I tell you , she still cant move her thumb. Consultant said it still had to heal, and want be better for another 3 weeks, but sent her away without anything.
While I was at work, she ccracked it off the table, and then howled the street down for ,according to my partner about an hour.
Hmmmmmm
She seems okay now though......mind you, gave her lots of calpol.
Hi Melbi
Jeez how painful does that sound!!! :shock: 
All very well giving you painkillers etc but are they going to have to operate to free the bone from the joint??
Hope they can sort it all out for you soon. Just tell them that depression is quite enough for anyone to have to cope with in any one year and to get it sorted!!
Joking aside, it would, of course, help if all the various departments actually talked to each other!
Take care my friend - all best wishes. :hug:
X