I dont know what to do...

Mental health
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I'm scared and I don't know what to do. I think i'm depressed but I don't want to put that label on it. I'm 15 years old.

I'm always sad and find myself to be in a state of despair. I'm low on energy and think that I am a disappointment to many. I have never thought about killing myself and have never wished or thought upon my own death. Maybe i'm just been in a rough spot that has lasted for a long time or perhaps i have the conception of depression all wrong but all I know is that I am scared of how people we see me and i'm afraid of how people would react if I told them. I have no reason to be sad or anything i have a good life that i am thankful for. I have a good family and caring friends and everything I could possibly need or want but I want to cry all the time. I wonder what it would be like if I wasn't alive if i wasn't even born and I always never thought there would be a difference if I were here or not. I hold back my tears and put a smile on my face and pretend that i'm okay but i don't feel that I am. I'm stuck and feel alone. I haven't told anyone about how I have felt but its been a while and I think its slowly getting worse. I feel like i'm drowning and I can't move or do anything. I feel like i can't have one small breath of relief even if its just for a moment. I feel numb almost.

 

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Hi. You need to go see your Dr. They can do a full assessment on all of the things you are feeling. You have been brave in taking the first step and reaching out for some help. I have a daughter the same age as you and it saddens me to think of someone your age feeling this way. Are you not able to talk to a family member at all??? Keep us posted on how you are doing and good luck. Help and support is out there for you x

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thankyou for the wishes. Im sure there is family I can talk to but i dont know what to say or how to start off. In my family we dont talk about our feelings very often; we dont like to share out feelings and thats how grew up, never sharing them to others. Im also afraid of how they will think of me and them asking questions that I dont even know the answer to myself.

Thankyou for giving me that little sigh of relief that I may be okay.

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Hi. Maybe you just need to bite the bullet and tell them. There reaction may surprise you. You must go see a DR though.