I am 31 yr old female who moved countries for the significant other 4 years ago and we have been married for close to 3 years. Since the beginning of this relationship, I have always felt that I am not as important in his life and I have cried almost every day in the past 4 years. 8 months ago I had a miscarriage and I have constantly struggled to get out of this marriage. I have called my mother and cried and it usually makes me feel better. In the past 6 months or so i feel i have gotten worse. It feels like my heart literally hurts and I am helpless and all alone in this. My husband does not do anything for me. Growing up I have always said to my mom that she should be appreciative of the small things that my dad does and I do notice it when someone does something for me regardless of how small it is. after moving here i didn't have friends or family. the only person i knew was him but he didn't make time for me, it was either work friends or his parents or his dog. Now i am at a point that I feel like I am going to let down so many people if I walk out of this marriage but at the same time, I don't know how to handle this. today at 11 pm I felt so lonely and ignored and went for a long walk just to cry out loud and I was just hoping that a car would run me over. I have been meditating and one of the things that I learned was to remember that " this too shall pass" but I feel this is not going to pass and if it is the only way to make that happen is if I was dead. My mom thinks I am crazy to cry and so I have stopped calling her and it has made my situation worse. I feel like no one cares about me and I had messaged my sister about this and she didn't care either. I do honestly wish I was dead but I don't think I have the courage to do this myself. I am not even sure if this is depression.
Hi I wouldn't get too hung up over labels as this detracts from the main issue. If you feel your marriage is over then make plans to leave. It doesn't matter about other people as they are not in your place are they? You need to think of your own feelings and decide what is best for you.
I presume you have talked to your partner about it? x