It all started 2 months ago with a lump in my chest and I searched on google what it could be and it came back with cancer. This jump started my anxiety and now I have become a hypochondriac. I went to the doctors office and he said it was just a lipoma and I had an ultrasound and it looked normal. Mind you I am a 21 year old male. Then that night I went searching for more lumps and I found one on the other side and the doctor again said that it is nothing to be concerned about. Then I started having pains in my testicle and the doctor said take advil and have an ultrasound done and the pain subsided and the ultra sound was clear. After all this I began to feel sick and I thought it was from salmonella so I threw up for a few days and then followed loose stools. Of course I though that was colon cancer from reading on the internet. Now you would think I should feel better now but nope, thats not the case. My grandmother was diagnosed with cancer, my friend was also diagnosed with cancer and now I am even more scared of the possibility. The last couple weeks I began having trouble sleeping and then getting these random twitches all over my body. Now I feel really weird and I cannot sleep anymore and I have a headache that comes and goes. Ive had an eye exam 2 months ago and my doctor has done various blood tests but I am now convinced I have brain cancer since I have many symptoms. I am scared to death and I am not sure what to do. I have also had various panic attacks with crying and vomiting. This all started with one health problem that seemed to have triggered more and I hope its just my anxiety. I am never happy anymore and I am always in a mood where nothing will make me smile.
Hi there 🙂
May I say I’ve just noticed this more and more with Anxiety..
as I’ve said a similar thing to this with someone else tonight, I see a reacuring pattern.
I’m sure everyone on this forum see the posts that come and many have wrote them,
I’m scared i have this I’m scared of having this. I don’t say that to take the Micky no no no at all, it just and observation.
So many of us with Anxiety obviously start with the anxiety then worry then anxiety gets worse it feeds. It goes round and round.
There is such a thing as health anxiety I do not have this. Maybe you’ve this? I’m no dr but is it a possibility?
Aniexty for me well ...... my worry my panic is losing my rock my mum. I’ve no one but her really so I am constantly worried about that. Also the next shock what will it be??
.... i said this as well there are so many symptoms some all at once, some random, some a build up. It’s really cruel. Physical as well headaches heart racing sweating. Feeling numb somtimes very tired all the time.
You are young you’ve had lots of tests they’ve been clear. Take so comfort in that,
Also another thought and it’s just mine,maybe talk to someone professionally to help find out why you feel you’ve and illness and when it’s not that one you think it may be another.
It sounds like a simple trigger ie a bug and you think the worst...
then same with me in a way mums not in panic look everywhere call everyone think she’s died do she walks in the door fine!!you see just how cruel it is.
Hope you will get this sorted and you can go on with your life without this constant fear.
If you really feel you are suffering from something more obviously go to the dr or hospital.
Take care
vicky🌈
Hi Vicky. I have had anxiety for many years . Every symptom. Scared of going out. Heart racing. Sweating, racing thoughts and worry. Shaking, I totally get the thoughts you have about your mother. This also goes round and round in my head, driving me mad, and terrifies me as I cannot imagine life without her and her constant encouragement. She reassures me 'as always' that we should deal with these things when they happen but having anxiety we just can't do this. If I'm not worrying about something I worry. 😳. My anxiety has got better over the years and I can have really good times, productive and not as anxious, but just now and again I can feel it creeping back. Had a couple bad weeks lately but feeling more positive now. At the time I felt awful but thank goodness it passed as it usually does. I believe we will always have anxiety but can push ourselves to manage it. Counciling, talking here and to family helps, keeping busy , even when we feel at our crapiest (is that a word?)😊. Also great tips on relaxation and mindfulness ( jams posts are great. Try everything, hope you get some help with theses awful thoughts that try to drive us mad. ❤️
Meant jans posts are great, not jam😋❤️
Hi there AdalinaYeah my mum has been like you said great source of strength and encouragement to me and she’s being there in very desperate situations. it’s just she’s getting older now and I don’t want the way I feel affecting her in the her later years so to speak.
I do worry constantly what I would do without it’s a massive fear So that’s why I say I’m going to start again because for her to see me in my own environment and doing okay would be massive massive achievement .As I said I’ve been waiting for a CPN for a long time. I have given them a ring today to see if I’m any closer to seeing someone but I had no joy the was not there.
I am glad to hear that after you’ve had a bad time you are getting better that’s really great.I try to relax I try mindfulness as you probably know when you’re anxious and it’s really heightened you can’t really concentrate. I hats my problem.
Here’s hoping you carry on getting well!
Thank you for talking.
vicky🌈
I’m so sorry I got your name wrong! How silly
sorry Edwina x
vicky🌈
Hi. No probs about name, bit posh I prefer eddy anyway😆. Just wanted to say , I sometimes feel guilty putting all this on my mum especially as she's almost 70. She assures me she doesn't mind and I don't have to apologise as she is so happy on the days when she sees me smiling and doing stuff. Also get the mindfulness thing. Really is great but if I'm really anxious ' no chance I can switch off. I. Ought a tens machine, meant for muscle aches, but I concentrate on the pulse sensation, helps a little, others have said the same, case of try anything, a good councilor that understands would be great, I usually start by asking if they have ever felt anxiety or just know what it's like to be a little nervous( a little cheeky maybe) but I have to feel I can relate to them as I feel you can't understand anxiety if you've never felt it. We're not nervous or highly strung, were ill and want to control this, sorry for rant.😳Hope you're days a good one.❤️
Hi there .. eddy 🙂
Yes this is really relatable for sure, my mother like yours is really happy when shs see me doing even the littlest of things. She died to make suggestions go on train! Painting sad when I say no. I really feel for!
she had depression very bad when she was younger and my gran too.
They say if you have depression it’s 50% likely your children will have it. It really shows the pattern the cryin* in a tea towel every night. Was what she did when I used to come home from school bless her. I was and felt helpless then for her, like she does me. Horrible for he to see. The night terrors are the worst I’m good at hiding things, bu5 not that day.
i was asleep crying desperate to get out of this nightmare, woke up souting things like they’ve left me all on my own, I need a drink and I said thank god i see your face mum,, the drink by the way was a cup of tea but she thought I wanted an alcoholic one! She helped me out my room sobbing made me w hot water bottle got me a cup of tea but I never wanted her too see it!!I clean my room the other day sounds silly doesn’t it at the age of 40 sorted a few things out felt a little better for doing that.. took a It to do it silly hey.
Well you said about talkin* to someone well the letter came today I have an appointment end of month with a dr/CPN so I can get to see what all these meds are doing and wether they are wrong. I can talk get things I’ve buried for so long it can only be a good thing but like you I would prefer it if the people I see have some real experience in this god knows I need to be talking to he right people! You’ve got to be able to have a connection of some sorts totally get it?
since I’ve seen that letter I’ve even in my head thinking this is the start of my life.. again I can get help it’s made me feel better in that alone.
hope your day has been kind to you
take care thank you for taking the time to read and answer.
god bless our mums hey, trying to make her proud
vicky🌈
Hi Vicky. Wierd, cleaned out my bedroom other day, took loads to charity, really couldn't get motivated to do it but actually great, kept my mind busy, and I slept well knowing it was done and out of way. I've had nights when I don't sleep or wake terrified or wake heart racing etc, not so much now( touch wood). I've had nights when mums had to come round and sleep ( I'm over 40) and hubby works away, kind of glad he works away as I can hide how bad I feel, he is great but doesn't quite get how bad anxiety can make you feel, he misses out on few things social occasions mostly , I do feel bad , I used to avoid everything but now I push myself and always have an excuse ready if I'm too shaky panicky, usually it's worse the thought of doing it , I convince myself I'll hate it. I'm usually actually ok. Like everything the more I do it the more I prove to myself I can do more. Years ago I would have got into such a state and refused to even try. Anyway, night for now, hope tomorrow is a good day for you and everyone out there, especially our lovely mums😊❤️Eddy