The idea of offing myself is just so not alien in my mind... I feel like I should do it and it could be the answer to my anxiety.. I don't know where else to turn to, as medication and therapy isn't working for me. My fear is coming from the movie alien, with the chestbursters and everything. I am afraid of THAT. I am so depressed and scared of it, and my parents hate it when I mention things like that and just say it isn't real... I know where my dads gun is, and I don't know anymore... I can't stop crying anymore, and the thought is penetrating my brain and I am scared, so scared....... I need some major help, and I am not getting it from anything....
I understand that you're going through something difficult right now. Killing yourself isn't the answer though. Life will move along and things can change. I've been in your place so many times, but I know it can change. It's easy to feel this way because it can be so easy to feel helpless with anxiety and treating it, but please, keep trying and don't give up. If therapy isn't working, try a different therapist. If medications aren't working, maybe they are not the option for you. But please don't give up now. If you ever need to talk, Message me.
Even though you know it's not real the feelings you have inside are very real.i had a panic attack last week and I felt I couldn't trust myself around tablets or sharp objects in case I harmed myself...The thought of what I was leaving behind ie;family my two boys ,was enough to stop me.now I'm left with anger and a fear of not being able to control it and it's very scary. You're not alone though mate hang in there and talking does help me a lot.
This is not something new Brandon, it has been going on with you for some time and it appears that you have still not been to see your doctor about it.
You must understand that there is only so much support that the people on this forum can give you, but the rest is down to you your parents and your physician.
Your parents must be very worried about you, as we all are, but if you really want your problems to stop, then you must do something to help yourself.
Killing yourelf is definitely not the answer, because that would leave your parents feeling so guilty, lost and empty, and you have said yourself that they are good people who do not deserve that.
There are answers and solutions for you Brandon, but to find them you must firsly speak to your parents about your problems, and then get them to take you to a doctor.
Hello, I totally agree with you.
Hello Brandon, Read what Archemedes has written below. I agree with them.
Elizabeth.
Hi Brandon
When we are feeling at our utmost worst
We begin to think that the only way out
Is to end it all , it seems that their is only this option or it is the best . The anxiety dictates these feelings / thoughts and it seems so real and believable
But all this working making you feel like this
Is like an impostor its tricking you into such
Episodes . I understand it's overwhelming at times and uncontrollable but it is
Diminishable . Ending things only provides
A lifetimes supply of heartache for those left behind it does not cure anything
You are stronger than this I've been on a similar route although I've never thought about ending it , the anxiety at times has been questionable it is unbearable
But I know and you know their is help out there . Make an appointment Asap
In the meantime do you have a close friend you can speak to ? Someone who will listen
I'm on here if you need to speak just pm anytime
Regards daz
Hi Brandon, you must seak professional help from your GP, and you must do it soon.
We would like to hear you post on thesis forum that you have been and tell us (if you wish) what your GP has suggested, most likely antidepressants for Obsessive a Thinking and Rumenation and CBT.
You must explore all options and help yourself by taking control of your illness rather than let it get you to the point of considering suicide as its a long term solution to a short term problem, plus your not giving yourself the opportunity to get better let alone distroy your family.
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Have you seen your physician yet Brandon, or have you spoken with your parents about your problems and asked them to go with you to your doctor?
Lots of people on this forum have been begging you to do something about it, but much as we would like we cannot do it for you.
Sorry, posted in the wrong place - will correct.
Have you seen your phyiscian yet Brandon, or have you spoken to your parents about your problems and asked them to go with you to your doctor?
Lots of people on this forum have been begging you to do something about it, but much as we would like we cannot do it for you.
Brandon please go to an inpatient psych ward asap. I too just came home from er
and meds and therapy arent working either. Anxiety is the worst illness you can have I would trade places with a terminal cancer patient to feel normal metally. This is not good. But please dont hurt yourself, your parents would be devastated along with others who love you. Ken