I feel like its time i accepted im depressed

Mental health
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I'm very new to this - both this site and a realisation that I'm probably depressed and have been for many years! I had my daughter at 19 it was a very violent relationship at times I genuinely feared for my life-no 19 Year old should ever feel that? I got away from him but feel it's stayed with me - he told me I was ugly and worthless - several failed relationships later I fear I believe it still? Sorry if that's a ramble I just spoke my thoughts

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Sarah

It is important you get your past sorted and talked out, you need to discuss a treatment plan with your GP. This problem is treatable it seems like PTSD

Make your appointment

BOB

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Hey Sarah I'm sure your not ugly etc worthless at all

You find that bullies as I call them tend to knock the wind out your sales they play on your self believe it makes controlling so much easier ya know

The damage they cause can last for years and when you suffer from depression because it's a mental illness the brain puts into play all the horrible things you have heard said enough time passes you start to believe it ya know

Have you spoke to a doctor you may benifet from CBT I hear it's very good.

Meds can subside the effect of depression to maybe you need to get some self confidence bk you know claim back what that person took from you

Have you thought about what Sarah Sarah enjoys not Sarah the mum ya know what do you like doing for yourself maybe the gym like me or swimming a few girlie nights in or out start to have friends over go out try to have some fun

I thing sometimes we get so bogged down with ourselves at the hands of others we forget life can be fun we can have fun you should give all the above a chance I know you won't feel like partying and things but you may enjoy a small light hobbie just to take your mind to a new place ya know break that cycle

Thinking of you keep in touch mike X

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Hi Sarah - sorry to read of your situation - thank goodness he is no longer physically around you. You have described a bully with psychopathic traits and no doubt deeply insecure. To make himself feel in control he has "owned" you, used physical violence to vent and to "keep you in line," and demeaned you in order that you stay submissive and thinking you are not good enough for anyone else. In fact, if you think about it, he was really speaking about himself - because these sorts of people are always about themselves. Borderriever and Superfluous have given you the best advice - seek professional help. You can and will move on, out of the shadow that bullt has cast over you. Oh - and you are not rambling. You are doing the sensible thing and reaching out. We are always here to talk to.

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Thank you so much for the kind words x

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Thank you it means so much to hear I'm not mad - I'm so glad I reached out x

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Hello Sarah ^

You've been given some great advice!

I'm glad too that you decided to express yourself on here, this site can help so much. Everyone here is lovely and you get to meet some people who have very similar situations to yours, so you don't feel too alone in this world.

Keep us updated now and again and definitely use this forum as a means to letting your feelings out 😄

Love E