i feel totally lost and helpless at the moment. I have suffered from issues with my eating and depression since my teens. In my 20’s i was binge eating and making myself sick (Bulmia). I am now 38 and still suffer with binge eating but don’t make myself sick anymore. i feel out of control, i am tired of fighting each day. From the moment i wake up to the moment i go to bed i am totally consumed around thoughts of food, how i look, trying to eat bare minimum calories so i don’t put on weight, getting anxious about making sure i can get to the gym to burn off any calories i have eaten that day.
i am exhausted and tired of trying to fight this every day. I Just want to be happy and enjoy my life but have wasted the last 15 years feeling miserable and hating my body and myself.
Hi Kim, I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with this for so long. I’m only 18 but ive had my fair share of eating disorders/unhealthy relationships with food in my lifetime. What seems to help me when im in a binge-eating phase or whenever really, is to start a habit of cooking nutritious (and yummy) food, 3 meals a day and usually a snack. Giving yourself nutrients/vitamins that you need will help you feel better physically and mentally. I usually dont enjoy cooking but if you make it into a habit it may become something you enjoy and will help to get into a routine of healthy eating! Another important thing as im sure you know, if you havent seen a doctor/counselor about this issue it may be a good idea so this disorder doesnt take up any more of your life. I’ve found counseling can really help!