Hi girls, I've not posted for a while as I've been plodding on.. Good days and bad days.
However today I feel awful!!
Yesterday I fell over in a supermarket car park and have no idea how it actually happened. Today I woke up aching all over which I could put down to yesterday's fall but I also feel very dizzy and nauseous and totally 'out of my body' if you know what I mean. As the day unfolds I'm shivery and have a pain under my ribs which comes and goes ( approx every 30 mins or so)
Has anyone experienced same or any thoughts on this?
Hi Camikitten, poor you I know just how you feel, can't offer you any solutions but I can offer my sympathy. I feel like it today as well, totally wobbly, shaky and like I'm not really here at all, woke up at half three feeling so sick and actually was very sick, totally spaced out and bloated and so fed up with feeling I'll all the time - because I have health anxiety it stops me going to GP so lots of luck to you later when you go, wish I had the courage, hope you get some answers x
Hiya camikitten sorry you feeling so badly. I have days when I feel like I have been run over by a bus. Just achy and sore feeling if you know what I mean. Today my anxiety is terrible and I just been crying I hate when I feel this way!!! I hope you have a better day. Keep us posted after your Dr. visit. Big hugs to you.
Feel like I need more sleep have heavy head n feel sick
Palpatations galore then the heaving starts n I have to be sick leaving me drained n needing to lye down
I was on HRT till last week took it for just on a month but I felt like I had morning sickness 24/7 saw my GP n he checked me over due to how I was feeling commenced me on a drop of citalompram daily n Zoplicone at night to help with the anxiety
I have an hour or so where I feel ok then I'm drained, I've had joint pain that has been excruitiating but has calmed slightly
I'm having an arthroscopy tomorrow as the pain is terrible but it's both knees n just having the left 1 done
I'm having awful thgts if dread what if !!!! I'm about to go on half pay at work so that's added stress I have 3 grandchildren n I have 1 who needs be put in school mon wed fri n the other 2 I have on a thrsday 1 goes into school n I have 17mnth old till 3.30 I worry that I'm not going to manage my weekly routine so again more stess added my hubby is here to help but typical man says OH IT BE FINE till it comes down to it plus at present I'm having to help out with my dad who is 87 n 4-5week post knee replacement
I sit here thinking were on earth have I gone wrong to be like this n I want my old self back been off work since dec n now having to have surgery to see what going on but not 100% if it's a prob with ligament or maniscus so I'm hoping they find so etching at least then I'll know it's not all in my head
What a fright for you Camikitten. I'm glad you're going to the doctor - could you have bruised your ribs? - hope everything is checked out for you. I had a hard fall a few years ago while crossing the road. Like you it was sudden and just happened. Crashed down on my forelegs like a pile of bricks.I wasn't hurt apart from a scraped hand and very sore legs but I was badly shaken.
These physical things carry psychological harms with them too.
Hi Lou. I'm so sorry you're suffering and I understand how it feels - especially the anxiety. My doctor prescribed me Diazepam for the really bad days and they help a lot. Even just knowing I have them to hand can help calm me down. Could you get a fmaily member or friend to go with you to your GP or, is it possible to have a phone consultation (my doc does this). I really think you need to speak to your GP who will, I'm sure, be able to help you. Best of luck. x
Thank you Michelle I am so glad you have some help and it is interesting that you have Diazepam that helps you, I really do want help but just can't do it - the thing that scares me is going to the Dr and then he says " ok we,ll just do some bloods" and that would seriously freak me out, not the actual tests themselves - the results ! because I worry all the time about what could be wrong that's what stops me. I'm in surgical menopause due to huge ovarian cyst ( 20cms) and hospital surgery left me traumatised and shocked, so it's very difficult as I want to get the help but at the same time I cant, every day I think tomorrow will be better - it never is it just gets worse. Guessing that health anxiety is all part of this horrid menopause it's just so hard to deal with - feel like going mad sometimes and also I keep it to myself a lot as hubby gets cross with me , he hasn't got a clue - I hope one day to find the courage to do something , thank you x
Hi Lou, you're most welcome. It's not easy to 'face your fears' especially after the trauma you've been through - that must have been awful for you. I'm not sure your doc WOULD want to do meds, he/she may well suggest counselling of some kind. I don't know where you live, but here in Scotland there is psychotherapy/CBT therapy available through NHS24 (it's called Living Life) and is conducted over the phone, free of charge. They ask you to fill out a form explaining how you're feeling, and then call you to decide which form of therapy would help you best. It helped me to a certain extent although I think hormones play a huge part in how I'm feeling. Are you even able to go on a waiting list for counselling or even pay privately? You want to live your life to the fullest and not look back and wish you hadn't sought help (I know that's easier dais than done). I'm sorry you haven't got a more understanding husband, he shouldn't get cross with you - ask him not to and tell him you don't expect him to understand but to show some support. The more friends/family you tell how you're feeling the more weight you will have off your shoulders. I have and they have all been kind, although obviously not able to 'cure' me. Someone once said to me to 'take baby steps' and go from there. This forum is helpful too, there's always somone who completely understands and will be there for you in so much as they can be on a forum! Let us all know how you get on.
Thank you Michelle I will try to find the strength to ring surgery, it's hard because I'm so done with scary hospital appointments and letters, I've had CT scans and all kinds of Internal imaging and blood tests which I know we're all necessary but still traumatising, in fact my last scan in January I actually had a panic attack on the table and almost couldn't go through with it, it was the lovely nurse that talked me through it and calmed me down that I made it through, then I had to wait for the results which was hell for me, didn't sleep or eat for nearly two weeks, when the letter came I had another panic attack and couldn't open the letter, hubby had to do it and in fact the results were very good and hospital have discharged me, BUT this is how bad I am I actually find it hard to believe that I'm ok and maybe they are not telling me everything - sounds crazy I know, my rational mind tells me that but then my irrational thoughts take over if you get my meaning - why is it thT some people handle things better than others, I am a grandmother for goodness sake I should be grown up about all this, as for hubby well as long as normal routine carries on he can't deal with me feeling bad! I live in Dorset and not sure about our counselling services, also I don't have much faith in my GP as despite my numerous visits back and forth I was misdiagnosed in the first place for months telling me I was constipated and sent me away with laxatives, so maybe that's why I'm so scared and have problems, I don't know maybe one day I'll wake up and just say to myself I've had enough and I wont care and just go for it ! Hope so. Thank you for your kind words xx
Sorry your not feeling good i was like that when i started peri I have to have my mum with me when i went to the gp it was hard we dont drive so had togo on the bus i now she a councillerabout my anxiety it has helped me she has been raelly good she gave me a card i posted it on hereit help you what to do if you get anxious
Hi Lou. Don't be hard on yourself, it's NOY uyour fault this has happened to you. We all have different personalities, backgrounds and life experiences which make us who we are. We all cope (or not) in different ways. Not everyone has a strong support network either. The CBT Living Life therapy is only available in Scotland, however, I found this website which shows you where you can get help - http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/stress-anxiety-depression/pages/self-help-therapies.aspx. The more I read about how you're feeling, the more I think CBT therapy could help.
Can you talk to your children about how you're feeling? That's too bad re your husband but I think a lot of men find it difficult to understand or sympathise with 'women's problems' and don't want anything to rock the boat.
There are good and bad doctors unfortunately. Would it be possible for you to talk to another doctor in the same practice?
Remember, baby steps to begin with and don't put yourself under any pressure or be too hard on yourself.
Hi Lou. I just replied to you with a website address which might be helpful to you. However, my reply has to be checked by a moderator first because I included a website address. Hopefully it will be sent soon. Have a search for NHS Choices and you will find info on CBT therapy etc
Thank you Paula, this is confusing also for me as don't know if I'm in full menopause or what ! No one has actually told me but I guess it must be as have nothing left, no womb ovaries or tubes, cervix also gone - have to gain strength from somewhere just so hard to make that move x
Thank you very much for that and yes I will look on NHS choices and at least it's a first step, isn't it awful how our minds can convince us of things, despite reassurance it's still hard to believe - menopause is just awful x
Hi Lou. I'm sure since your hysterectomy, you will be in menopause. Just a thought, but could you ask for your GP's district nurse to pop round and give you advice? Maybe you should be on HRT - I don't know. Yes, our minds can definately play up! Our brains get 'ill' just like any other part of us and need to be made better.
I sympathise with you every step of the way even down to your hubby mine is exactly the same as long as it doesn't interfere with his routine n that I need sort myself out yet on Saturday he actually comforted me said not to worry I'll be fine
Like you I have grandchildren n I want to feel my old self again but everyday is an uphill struggle
Just wish I could feel well
I'm having a scope on my left knee tomorrow hoping they find something wrong as I'm beginning to think it's all in my head
As Michelle says our brains get ill and need be made better just wish mine would hurry up xx take care
so glad to hear you're going to see your doctor later today that sounds awful! you may have concussion from falling over hope your doctor sorts things out for you XX