i started having hem 16yrs ago pregnant with 1st child. at my 4th child, the hems are bigger. they dont usually give me problems as I manage to push back after every BM. My BM is usually regular. Most of the time i go every morning without problem with occasionally i missed one or 2 days, but I still manage to pass.
last year dec, i was having hems flared up so I went gp for medications. Gp asked me if I wanna referred to colorectal specialist as I am always having to visit him for hems every few months. so I say ya, why not.
so i went for my 1st visit to specialist and he said I have 1 good size internal and 2 external and suggested ligation. I said ok. so i signed the day surgery authorization form and waited for the day.
on july was the surgery day. it was supposed to be colonoscopy and ligation at same time, but they only did colonoscopy. they found couple of polyps inside as well. i have to be referred to another appointment to further discuss my condition. makes me worried as the doc briefly say need to check if polyps is cancer or just healed tissue. so I went home quite anxious to know.
few weeks later, came back to see doc and he explained that my case need hemorrhoidectomy to fully remove. the polyps are nothing I shd worry about. thank god. he did warn me about the pain during recovery after hemorrhoidectomy but also give assurance they will provide medication for pain management. Hearing all the horror stories, I decided not to go ahead so he gave me an open date appt in case I change my mind.
so this is how I started to change my mind. 2 weeks ago, I had an explosive bowel due to spicy food which causes my hems flare up again but somehow this is more painful than usual. i still have my proctosedyl cream and euvein500 so I continued using them. After usage still no improvement and I started to constipate. knowing bowel will get painful, I starting to take fybogel and stool softener. i got restless and inserted dulcolax suppository to make me pass motion on the 5th day constipation. Felt at ease, the next day I visit GP to get more medication. I told him I used Dulcolax. He warned me against using dulcolax laxative. he said its not good for my hems. Advise me to just use stool softener and let nature take its cause. its my ext hem causing the pain. Not thanking the int hems exerting more pressure on my ext hems. 3 days later, ext hem pain still there and manage to pass motion naturally. another 3 days later, ext hem pain has reduce and manage to pass bowel again naturally but this time i am not able to insert back the internal hem. My stools were soft but they don’t pass easily. I try to relax my self to let them pass but the last bit, i may have strained much. try to push back hems but can only achieve abit. I got panic and went to GP as will need his help to push back. he tried pushing in, manage to do it but it came out again. it pained like hell when he tried to push. I bleed alot. i seldom bled due to hems. He saw this as emergency and ask me go straight to a&e. while waiting for referral memo, i asked the nurse how big was it. she said it is about the normal size of strawberry. i was in so much pain. went to A&E.
i cant walked so hub had to wheeled me when I reached a&e. the 1st thing seeing Doc, I asked for painkiller jab. lady doc then apply local numbing cream and try to push in. cream doesn’t work to numb the area. when she tried to push in it pain like hell again. this time the pain is like giving birth. she tried 2 times. After all the pain, the prolapse still doesn’t goes in. at that time I was begging to do op straight away to end my suffering, but it’s Sunday and this op is usually done as day surgery so she can only do her best to give the earliest date to meet my colorectal specialist.
I went home with a big bag of medications. I had 3 lvl of pain killer from paracetamol to tramedol. the pain killer jab and numb cream has no effect on me. I went home feeling sore. the sore is the same feeling I had after giving birth with stitches. just imagine I am experiencing pain of giving birth during pushing hems in and after failed attempt I feel like after birth. its the most unfortunate day for me.
now here I am on Monday 30 Aug 2021, typing in my story waiting to meet my colorectal specialist on Thursday and still not knowing when my surgery date is. as of now, the prolapse is still hanging out and I’m feeling sore and irritated. worried about next bowel motion too.
please pray for me that I will end this suffering soon. and to all out there who is suffering like me, I pray for u to get well soon too.. whether or not u have done surgery.
PS: I am nervous about surgery. I am mentally prepared but still nervous. hope the recovery pain is not as bad as how I feel when doc try push my hems in.