I've have very small amounts of anxiety my whole life, nothing that has affected my daily life. and I have always been able to drink and never noticed anxiety after wards, including after binge drinks. I'm a freshmen in college btw. I probably have drank 1-4 times every week for the past few months. Yet every time I drank it was in very large amounts. If I was drinking, I was getting drunk, that was just how it worked. Although about 3 weeks ago after returning from a day drink event with friends at the lake I noticed very bad anxiety. I started to panic and had a panic attack in my shower. Then I noticed the symptoms I had didn't go away. the symptoms included a fuzzy and weird feeling head(I hated this symptom the most, it was awful and I couldn't get rid of it, it made me feel uncomfortable inside my own head and I didn't want to deal with it), and to be honest that was the only symptom. I also was addicted to nicotine at the time, so I decided to quit that cold turkey as well as alcohol. This probably didn't help with my anxiety. The next day I was throwing up and uncomfortable in general, mostly scared that the feeling wouldn't go away. I went to the hospital because of a panic attack the next day and was put into a class type dealio where they taught us how to cope. After about a week and a half my symptoms completely subsided. I couldn't believe that I felt the way I did. Plus I had quit my nicotine habit. That's when I went to my friends lake and drank every night for 4 days. I returned with no anxiety. Then after a few drinking occasions with friends in the following 5 days or so I noticed it start to come back. And I had similar symptoms for about 5 days and today I notice it is subsiding and I'm starting to feel great again. But the problem is I already signed a bid to a fraternity at KU. It's a drinking fraternity and I love to drink. So I'm wondering if I need to stop drinking or if I can keep drinking but keep it to only once a week. It seems like college would be boring with out drinking, but that boredom might lead me to become a more successful person..?
Thank you so much if you read all of that. It's kind of scrambled I just wanted some other people's thoughts.
Thanks