I wrote here about 2 weeks ago. My anxiety got so bad I was imprisoned in my living room. Due to certain rooms of the house my husband did meth in when he was using made me unable to go in certain rooms, ive been sleeping on the couch for almost 2 years.... I started therapy via phone 2 weeks ago when I started on here. I have Zoloft I haven't taken yet, I also have Ativan that I haven't used... I get the heart palpitations, shaky, dizzy, sweaty, shortness of breath, feelings of death, tired, weak, sore muscles, odd pains, ears ringing, afraid to take medication bc of side effects... All anxiety related!!!! But two days ago I woke up, got on my feet and said f this!! And once I did, I kept going... I cleaned my house, forced myself to sit on the bed in my room, got excited to fight for myself.. today I went outside, played basketball with my 7 year old, rode a bike in my yard, pulled weeds, I haven't been in my driveway in 4 months with out an anxiety attack.. and today I had none!! I went on the sidewalk and walked to the next house!! If my car wasn't broken I may have driven right out of here!! I forced happiness on myself and it worked!!! I didn't think about anything I sang songs in my head to keep my mind from racing and it worked I kept going and going. If I can do this anyone can. Baby steps are still steps and get excited and be proud of yourself for accomplishing things. Not everyone understands what we're going through but we understand each other. We feel each other's pain here.. and believe me.. I will keep going because I am not ready to hand my life over !!! My life!!! Take control and be happy
This is really refreshing. Its nice to hear a happy story. The singing is a wonderful idea! Fantastic way to calm the thoughts. I will try it. Good for you for fighting. Looks like you're winning this battle.👍
Dawn, you give me hope. I love what you said and I am going to start singing!!!!! I love your positive attitude and I am going to adopt it for myself.
Thanks so much and I wish you cointinuous happy thoughts : )
Excellent news - and brings a lot of hope to a lot of people who are suffering from this wretched thing - with me; I too reached the "F you" stage but that was obtained after I had calmed myself enough to get my head around things - I had taken a short course of low diazepam and this helped me massively - once I could get a lid on the constant panic, I realised that the diazepam was relaxing me and making me feel normal; therefore, I just had to learn to act and feel relaxed and normal again on my own and not via medication - I had to find a way of not allowing the panic to rise within me for no good reason all the time - and so I did pretty much what you did; hit it head on and started making/forcing myself to do things - new things/old things - things that made me feel better; good, if only for a little while.... and then the panic/anxiety naturally loosened its grip on me! So glad you are feeling better! Long may it continue