I joined a voice hearing group but it made it worse. At one point I was on tranquilisers and anti depressants because of this but the psychiatrist and doctors were too busy to talk to. I also had workers in mental health support and they just used to gossip, smoke and take time off work for getting drunk. I also worry about benefit because whenever i feel well my benefit is taken and I'm forced back into work that is stressful until i'm ill again. I don't get help from family either because of an abusive past.
Hi Rachel, sorry to hear you are having such a tough time. You have my total empathy. There is nothing worse than when you're feeling unwell, down and vulnerable, the professionals who should be understanding and helpful- aren't!!! I can't think of anything worse. Why don't you change your doctor. Can you do that? I think this would be a first important step. If you could find a doctor who will make eye contact with you, listen when you talk and explain your problems - then you've cracked it! Try and build a rapport with him or her-even better! If I were you, I would get signed off for longer as I don't think you are ready and I say this based on you saying that you are in and out of work. Give yourself more time honey. Explain to your doctor that you do not feel ready to go back to work, hence, feeling ill again. The government apparently have a better and greater understanding of mental illness . Yes, it really does exist! They believe it and also want us to believe they care and want to help. Baloney! If they think taking away your benefits before you've even had a chance to see how you go back in the workplace, then they are full of it! It not exactly easing you in gently is it? Which I think is apt for someone suffering as you are. It's so wrong,unfair and as you said "stressful" you don't need that stress on top of everything you are experiencing. I'm here anytime. Keep me posted. Donna xxx
Rachel
If people are not listening to you and Health Professionals are not looking after you you need to talk to your GP and He will change these Health Professionals
Regards your Benefits, talk to your GP and discuss the problems you seem to have
BOB
I feel the same way. Sometimes i hear people talking about me when im not sure if its real or not and its confusing plus affecting my work, confidence, moods and health in general. To make it worse i dont have health personnel in my area for this type of problem. its the reason i joined here and people have been really helpful for these problems. I guess my abusive JW father crated the base for this pattern i guess and like u, not getting help from him.
All i can say is it helps to pay less attention to them. i used to use weed and found that it made it worse, scary even when i was on my kinda bipolar low days. still happens though less now that ive taken time off the weed but i still have the anxiety and low confidence + unhealthy thoughts are still a common thing. its not a pretty or even ok situation but forcing some positive days has helped me to some point where i feel better than my past 3 years. Hope this helps, take care, and following this thread for more helpful solutions. Hope you improve quickly
Hi. Thank you for your reply. I don't mind going back to work so long as it a creative job. I am an artist. I also have a background of good quality education that I couldn't put to use because of anxiety attacks in the work place. They put me on JSA for a year and I couldn't cope. I don't want to be bullied and verbally abused in the work place again. The places where I have to enquire about benefits are miles away and amongst traffic and crowds. Fortunately my doctor is near and I'm looking into making an appointment.
I am looking into this. I have changed doctor. Fortunately the waiting times are not too long like the last one and it's not miles away near noise and chaos.
No, smoking Mary Jane doesn't help. Nor does living in supported housing where people smoke it. Fortunately I don't do drugs. I have an abusive family who don't help which is difficult in a world that is family orientated. I just get verbal abuse from my family even though I've done nothing wrong.