i have suffered with depression for years

this is the first time i have written on open forum so not sure but i have sen so doctors and had therapy on and of years. now on another tablet called mirtazapine still feel crap i am maried no kids hate my job and really wish i was never born i could write a book on my life living in the past i would change so much.not sure what to do most of the time i feel like dying but havn't the guts to do this or i would just to prove a point all i get from family is pull yourself together we not deppressed so why should you be.sorry the rant but this is how my head is all over            andrew from nottingham  

I have no one to talk to who understands, or cares either, so I know exactly what you mean.  Don't people think if we could "pull ourselves together", we would?

ditto x

if only it was that easy ................. they are cluelusss 

Hi I am in the same situation.   I have no one to talk to who understands.  Does your wife understand?  x

I too have had depression for many years.  I have lost a great deal because of this illness, but I battle on.  I did take an overdose once and have been hospitalised, lost job, house, relationships, but I am still here.  I feel better nbow than I did when I first knew I had depression.  I just keep on fighting.  Hard I know, but what else is there?

I think we could all write that book, I have said that many times.  Yes there are many things I too would like to change, but the past is past, and we cannot go back.  I often wonder how different my life would have been.  I have lived alone all the time I have had depression. 

You are entitled to rant, I think it helps.  All of us here understand because we know exactly how you feel.  We all support each other so carry on ranting, that is fine. 

i think so but its hard for her i have so many layers it gets her down as well but in the end still think i would better alone 

i wish i could end this pain but havnt the guts to and to walk away i havnt the guts so im sorry to say this but life is like nightmere.

over the years its got worse your right its good to rant somedays i wish i was never born like you i keep fighting for the days of glory and happinenss anyway thanks for the reply its good to talk with someone who understandsx