I haven't seen my son in 2 years going on 3, Ive been depressed the entirety of that time.

It's almost 3 years since I last saw my beautiful son. He is turning 6 next month, I've forgotten what it feels like to be happy, I mean not just smiling or laughing but genuinely happy.

I can't stand looking at pictures or videos of him as the pain completely consumed me.

I feel like life Has a deep loath tours me as no matter how much a try I continually fail.

Is this life?

Should I give up?

Please help me

How can i deal with the pain I feel?

Hi if I may ask why you can’t see your son 

Hello Maurice. Glad you wrote in but no do not give in. I cannot imagine your pain. Would you like to tell us more but if not I totally understand. It could maybe help us better direct you. Maurice have you tried counseling or antidepressants? Listen we will support you as long as you need us I promise. We understand pain. Diane

Please tell me if you find anything that helps. It has been 3 years since I have seen my son and 7 years since we had a conversation. Time does not heal.  I hope and pray that you will be able to see him. That is the only thing that will help me. But please hang on!