I honestly want to die (not suicide) just read

I can handle my anxiety, but I'm not ready to live life without my mom. My mom has been having this chest pain today, when she stands up, her legs even hurt! When on her side, her chest pain worsens. She doesn't want to go to thr hospital! She does want to get help! She just said she wants to eat before she leaves... leaves where? I'm in agony here! No one ever wants to lose there mom! Especially not me! I'm not ready! I'm actually suffering right now! I don't in any means want to die, but if God is going to take my mom, I'd want him to take me too.

Sorry to hear about this, Sam. Is your mom better now? Maybe you could try telling her how you feel, that you don't want to lose her. That could persuade her to consult a doctor. Or, do you have a GP you can talk to and maybe schedule a home visit?

I get panic attacks when I think about family members dying too. I still feel dependent on my parents, and I'm 30. I know it's hard. But, if the worse happens, you can survive it. You're stronger than you know. Take a deep breath and calm down. It'll be ok.

Hello Sam!

I'm sorry to hear about your mom's pain, but it could easily be nothing if she has no preexisting conditions. What your doing right now is catastrophizing. Thinking the worst case scenario.

If she doesn't want to go to the hospital, you're overreacting. She's the one in pain. If it was that severe enough, she'd go. Until she gets a diagnosis for how she feels you need to calm down in the meantime.

Don't even allow your mind to think about her dieing. Because you will convince yourself it's really happen & go in frequent severe panic attacks. Ask her why she doesn't want to help, you know investigate the situation if you haven't already. If she doesn't want to go, then she doesn't want to go.

You can't keep living your life like this Sam. In constant fear. Even if one of your family members was to pass it happens & it's a part of life. We all die & you can't keep stressing about something you can't control. You come first & your health. Learn to live life free & give it to God. God said that all those who are weary come to him for rest. Give it all to him & carry on. Pray about it as much as you stress about it. Have faith, be strong, & trust on God. You will be okay ❤.

It's true. I was catastrophizing, we went to the doctor today, he said itit's most likely a virus, she had a little bit of a fever. Her blood pressure is normal, and nothing was abnormal. As long as that's normal, I'm good. He did take blood, and urine, but that's because she hasn't done it in Ages!

Thank you. She's better now. She ate chicken and salad, and it's doing a lot better. Though the doctor found she had a small fever today. Yesterday it might of been worst. I'm happy she's good. Her blood pressure was good, everything was normal. Won't know if she has something serious for a few days. She got blood taken out.