I just don't know what to do anymore

Mental health
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All my life I've always been expected to be someone I'm not. Everyone always expects me to be like my sister everyone expects me to be smart,social and pretty

My parents are always comparing me to my sister. When I achieved atleast one thing in my life they just didn't care but when she achieved something they take her out give her money and buy some thing to celebrate

I don't want it to seem like I'm jealous I'm not I just wish to be loved and cared for like other people. I just don't know what to do anymore I'm depressed all the time and I'm tired of acting like I'm my sister. 

The one time I tried to be my self people thought I was acting 'wierd' I try to iscate myself from society but that doesn't work when you have a popular sister. What's the point in being in a world where no one cares to ask you what's wrong, no one cares to ask you what you think about something.

I'm not saying that I'm thinking about commuting suicide. I just feel that everyone looks down on me. I'm not good at anything and I don't care about anything anymore. I don't value my life but I'm not going to commit suicide. I just feel that I'm bringing everyone down and I have to put a facade on every time I'm around some one.

I just want to know what I should do. I love my sister, and I wish her the best in the world but what's the point of living if you can't be yourself around anyone

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Do people still want to spend time with you? If so maybe they enjoy being around too, they might not say it but enjoy being around you too...

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Hey astro. You have many reasons to be in this world. One of them being if u leave, family, friends even me will be effected. Yesh i count myself as your friend too. If you have KIK or anything i can keep in touch and be there for u every second of the way. You are yourself and people dont look down on u. I look up to u. Keep being yourself. Like i said if you have kik and you just want to talk, feel free to tell me. I check back on postd very often. You have all my love

Love

Daniel

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Hey astro. You have many reasons to be in this world. One of them being if u leave, family, friends even me will be effected. Yes i count myself as your friend too. If you have KIK or anything i can keep in touch and be there for u every second of the way. You are yourself and people dont look down on u. I look up to u. Keep being yourself. Like i said if you have kik and you just want to talk, feel free to tell me. I check back on posts very often. You have all my love

Im sorry if this didnt help but i hope you all the best and dont worry. You are very unique. I find you special

Love

Daniel

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I posted the same thing twice. Woops sorry . But yeah feel free to talk to me if u want 😀😀

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I don't have KIK but thanks anyway!

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You are very welcome!