Hi, I'm dealing with anxiety and depression for 3 years now and I lose the hope that everything ever will be fine again. I'm only 20 years old so I have a whole life ahead.. I find it very hard to describe what exactly is happening to me. I've been through numerous kind of things which are happening inside my mind which gives me anxiety and depression. For example last week I had a whole week long very evil situations in my mind which gave me so much anxiety. Now they are some kind of gone again and there are new problems. It's going that way for a very long time now and I just feel so hopeless. A hour ago I went to get some take away food and I just felt very blurred out and I had poor vision. It gave me so much anxiety again, because I'm very afraid to lose control of me and everything. I can't really describe what I felt and why I felt that way, but it was like I went through a hell. And now I am feeling very gloomy again because that happened. A while ago I had a bit better period and everyone was trying to push through it and after that everything was really difficult, because I felt/feel very bad again. Now I'm at home again and I come too little outside my house again and I know that's bad. I missed a couple of sessions of my therapy so well.. It's really a bad period. I feel so hopeless and that's probably recognizable through out this message. My body and mind feels very right now and I wish I felt just good for once. Why do I deserve this:(. My life is so limited and lonely.. I never see my friends again, have no job, no study.. Nothing... Nobody understands me even my psychologist.. Ask for advice what I could do now, but she couldn't say anything.
I am so sorry you are going through this and I know what depression feels like. have u ever tried antidepressant medication from a psychiatrist? that’s the type of Doctor Who knows medications very well and could find the right one for you. depression is a terrible thing to live with so it’s important to get some help with this.
you have suffered too long with this.
You could find a therapist that specializes in anxiety and depression. It really helps to talk to somebody else who can help. sounds like the therapist you were seeing was not very helpful but there are many out there who can help you! There is always hope.
there are some great meditations for anxiety, depression, sleep, etc. on YouTube. I listen to these every night with my earbuds and they really help. your body and mind are very tired and worn out from all of this. You need to take care of yourself and get the needed support! If you are in the US and need to talk to somebody there is a confidential phone number you can call anytime day or night. They can also help find resources for you. 800-273-8255
take care❤
I too know exactly how you’re feeling, I’ve been there. Sounds to me like your anxiety is causing depression or vice versa, they run together. I’ve been through just about every worry, thoughts, anxiety, panic attacks, depression etc. I was also going to ask if you’re taking any medication for it? I know you said that your therapist wasn’t much help, I would definitely look for one that you feel comfortable with, and makes you feel even a little better after your session. I understand though exactly how you feel, and just know that if I can feel better after all I’ve been through, there is definitely hope for you! Just try to relax for now and know that there are many options for treatment to help you feel better and get back to living good.
Best Wishes!
I’ve been on antidepressant medication, but it doesn’t have benefits for me. I know people say you have the right one, because some work and some don’t, but I got extreme fear of losing control and medication does something with my mind so you know where I go with this.. Alcohol, coffee, high sugar etc. makes me feel very uncomfortable and anxious as well. I wish I was just normal you know… I’m just sick and tired of life. For 20 years straight I had not a single moment where I was happy. My childhood where I suffered from domestic violence for 8 years has forced me to be a person which I don’t want to be. But the actual damage I made to myself was after that period when I started doing drugs to stay away from reality. I had a couple of bad trips and that’s when I came in this gigantic hole. I really hated myself and I still do. I just don’t know why my life has to be this way.. I often pray of just why.. And I’m not even religious or anything, but I just feel so hopeless. I want to be a good person which enjoys life without anxiety and depression. That feels like a illusion right now. I feel like my isolated life is making worse as well and I am feeling like I’m losing it. I often talk in myself etc. because I am lonely probably.