I'm constantly terrified and social anxiety is ruining my life.

Mental health
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Hi there, I don't really know why I'm doing this discussion, I guess I just need a place to vent, since I have nowhere else to do it. I've suffered from anxiety issues for a long time but ever since I graduated and moved home it's increased tenfold, mostly my social anxiety, to a point I've never experienced before. It's taking over my life, I'm so scared of meeting people that it's stopping me from doing important things like getting a job or doing a masters at uni or even just going to parties I've been invited to. I haven't seen any of my friends for going on 6 months now because I get such an anxious feeling. I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm stuck, I also suffer with OCD, mainly intrusive thoughts that rule my every being, they make me question everything and I've got to a point where I don't even know who I am anymore, I feel like I'm just copying others like a mirror to make sure I fit in and nobody notices how broken and unsure I really am. 

Like I said I'm not sure why I'm writing this, it's just a vent and a call for anyone else feeling similar, I know really I should be talking to a professional but anxiety won't let me get that far right now.

Thanks x

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It  does help to vent.  I’ve had social anxiety since grade school. Wish I got counseling sooner because I went through years and years of it and I was miserable in school and work.  I also copied others but never learned who I was.

Got married so I could stay home and raise the kids.  

I recommend that you speak to a counselor as soon as you can. They see this every day and they can help you get some peace of mind.  

Dont hold  anything back with the counselor .  They have heard everything believe me! The more they know the more they can help you and come up with a plan. I hope you feel better soon 

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Also there are some great meditations YouTube for Anxiety, sleep,  OCD, etc

I listen to this every night and they completely calm me down

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Hello. I can absolutely relate Pixar123. I have really bad social anxiety which has basically stunted my life. It's such a difficult thing to shift from my mind, in fact so far I haven't been able to regardless of all the different approaches, blah blah. Just want you to know you're not alone. There's a lot of people like us from what I've now come to understand. Hang in there Pixar123, and keep battling, keep fighting.