I'm 22 years old, I have the greatest family that provided a lot of love in the past. I don't have many friends cause I been used so many times I don't trust anyone and have been screwed over by great friends that I considered family.
I still feel useless through my entire life at a young age my father mentally abused me for so long that feeling useless and a disappointment is all I'm good at in life.
I already tried committing suicide 2 times but was saved at the last nic of time. I don't know what to do I feel lost alone and been having to fight depression for my entire life and I'm on the verge of giving up again. I know I'm going to be alone in life I know I won't have a family it's something I knew that was never going to happen.
No one can ever answer this question I've been asking though.. what is the whole point of life.
All of us feel helpless and hopeless. But you really cannot be sure that you will never have a family. No one can tell the future. You have a loving family now as you said. Take their support. You have to put the bad things that happened in your past out of your mind. Dont dwell on the past. Think about the future. Study something you like and plan your future. Go out and you will find good friends. Please do not try to take your life. It is the cowardly way out. I also feel sometimes that life has become pointless. But then i think of my family. I cannot do anything to hurt them or scar them for life. As you learn to face your problems you will become stronger mentally. Go and see a good therapist and talk. They will help you.
Hola TJ72. Tengo ahora cuarenta y tantos años y he luchado con muchos de esos pensamientos y sentimientos en mi mente todos los días debido a, sí, la confianza y la autoestima que se han visto socavadas, como en tu caso, desde muy joven. Una cosa que he aprendido es que el futuro no está escrito, así que, para mí, cada día es un nuevo día para atacar esos demonios interiores con los que luchamos a diario. La determinación, la persistencia, aceptar nuestras imperfecciones y las de los demás [o al menos intentarlo, todos las tenemos], volver a montar en ese caballo y simplemente siempre volver a tomárselo con más calma a uno mismo a través de la compasión, es, creo, lo que me ayuda a enfrentar cada día. La vida es un desafío, ya ves, todos tenemos diferentes desafíos, y los nuestros, como los de muchas personas, son desafíos de la mente, las emociones, y eso es realmente enorme. El suicidio no es una "salida de cobardes" como algunas personas tienden a creer, conozco a personas que se quitaron la vida y eran personas muy amorosas y cariñosas que enfrentaban cada día, como tú, con coraje, esperanza y determinación. Así que, ¿cuál es el punto de esta vida? Sí. Para mí, es crecer, y creo que en un sentido espiritual. Solo quería compartir mis pensamientos contigo y que sepas que no estás solo en el mundo con todo esto. Sigue buscando ayuda y sigue encontrando el amor en tu corazón porque creo que es la razón por la que estamos aquí. Mantente fuerte. Paz y amor.
Hi TJ72 - sorry to read of your dilemma. I, too, had an abusive childhood and it burdened me for decades. I'm in my fifties now and have come to accept that I will never have a family unit to lean on. Some people think this is sad but i have learned to embrace it. I was always arty so I can escape into that and have achieved many things in life. I never feel lonely even though I am, essentially, alone. Suicidal ideation was sometimes at the forefront of my mind when i was younger. At this age I can say i am glad I never followed through. My view on the point of life is self awareness, learning through adversity, becoming self sufficient, understanding that life is a challenge and a school, and that, no matter how bad or low it gets, in the end everything will be alright. Another challenge is to exercise compassion to all living things even as you are burdened by your own pain. Selflessness and strength. It's difficult, but nothing worth anything is ever easy.
Having said that (and there's so much more) there is no need for you to suffer in todays advanced world of medicine and psychotherapy. Have you had counselling where you can dig down inside and bring to the light the past events that are affecting you today? Burying pain leaves it to fester. It must be brought out, examined, understood and then forgiven/discarded.
You are not useless and suicide is not an escape. Neither are you alone. There are many at this site who can absolutely empathise with your situation. Don't give up. See if you can wrangle a support structire of a good doc and a therapist/counsellor or psychologist. Suicide is definitely not an option if you have not explored every single path of understanding/help/recovery that is open to you.
All i can say @ the mo in my frame of mind is if whowever has the answer to that question astra-zeneka wld make them richer than thir wildest dreams x
Tengo 24 años y he intentado suicidarme dos veces. Me pregunto lo mismo. "¿Cuál es el sentido de la vida? Todos tenemos un propósito. El sentido de estar aquí es estar con tu familia. Disfrutar de esta vida, ser feliz. Formar una familia si quieres una en el futuro. 😊 Salir y hacer cosas que disfrutes. No tengo una respuesta, pero sé una cosa. ¿Sientes ese latido? Eso se llama propósito. Estás aquí por una razón. No te rindas. Aguanta, las cosas mejorarán. El suicidio no acabará con el dolor, solo lo pasará a otra persona. A tu familia. Sé fuerte por ellos. Lo siento por tu padre, suena igual que mi papá, hace lo mismo con mi hermano y lo hace sentir inferior. No eres una persona inútil y una decepción. Eres digno y mereces felicidad. No seas negativo, tendrás tu propia familia. Eres joven, tienes mucho por delante. Disfruta del presente. Intenta socializar, salir, distraerte y pensar de manera positiva. Tendrás tu propia familia y serás un mejor padre para tus hijos de lo que lo fue tu papá. Lo has intentado dos veces, ¿no te dice eso algo? Estás aquí por una razón. La depresión nos miente. No son verdades. Busca ayuda de un terapeuta. Habla sobre cómo te sientes y dale tiempo. La terapia ayuda. No de inmediato, pero después de un tiempo. Empezarás a sentirte mejor y con medicamentos. Tienes que cambiar ese patrón de pensamiento y no escuchar la negatividad, cambiar esos pensamientos por positivos. Dite retroalimentación positiva. Ignora los malos pensamientos y concéntrate en ti. Intenta mejorar por ti y por tu familia. 😊
Yes i agree with you Ashley. Suicide will only hurt your family. They will feel guilty that they failed you and then it will be their turn to feel guilty and depressed. It is a vicious circle. Life is precious and we have to accept what we get but we also can turn those things around if we put our minds to it.