I was sitting in the shower last night with my husband. He was giving me a hug while I was crying as the last couple of days of anxiety got the better of me.
I started babbling on about how unfair it was, what have I done to deserve this? Is it going to come back and I'll be stuck with this forever? Why is this happening? But I got over my last episode in a day, why has it stayed around for 3 days? Ill never be able to have a baby if I'm like this. And so on...
So, my partner calmed me as he always does when I go through this and said these words:
You have an illness, you will go through this from time to time.
It will pass, remember you had 2 weeks of feeling well, you had a day setback and then you were fine for a month. You're fighting this and you're stronger than you think.
Its all anxiety that's feeding this.
I know this has taken a bit longer this time round but think of it as a cold, they are never the same, and anxiety is like this. It may take a bit longer to get over it this time.
Immediately I felt better and ate dinner with no problem. I have some heart pulpitations today but its not bad. I will remember his words and the support that you have all given me when I have those bad days, well... bad week this time round 😊
Feeling like you. My partner is also very great and supportive. He had to hold me through my break down today due to bad anxiety for the last 2 weeks. Stay strong
It's a bad thing to experience. I am having a tough time right now with it so understand the tears and frustration. Prayers for healing of all here sufferring
Hi Lind! Yes dear, you are definitely getting better again. Every attack is different, sometimes tolerable, most of the times not. It breaks us to pieces whenever we experience it. Consider yourself lucky that you have a very supportive husband...that's a very big big help. When you have someone who understands your pains and fears, sticking by you everytime you feel down, that's a blessing.
I hope and pray that you get better soon...with more months well and just minutes of attacks (sorry can't tell you you'll be well forever coz that's giving false hopes. We do know that this disorder go...and unfortunately misses us so it comes back without any invitations )
I am super lucky to have such a supportive partner. I'm 37, have a great job, amazing friends, beautiful house, no money worries and as far as I know, I'm healthy (although we are trying to have children which we are finding difficult but I don't feel I'm stressing over that anymore). I always wonder why I have anxiety and can't understand why I have developed it but I have stopped wondering why and just accept it.
What a beautiful relationshio you have! Just tear jerking beautiful. You are blessed. He is correct. Actual illness set this off. Hang in there dont decongestanrs they trigger anxiety sky high.